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2009-04-22T21:47:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I will be departing from Singapore on this Saturday, 25th April 2009, to Jeddah then to Mekkah then to Madinah for Umrah (mini pilgrimage). I will be back on the 4th of May 2009 insyaAllah.

To all my friends, I apologise for all my wrongdoings, keampunan zahir dan batin. Halalkan semua makan minum Izwan sekiranya ada terambil, termakan, terminum hak milik anda.

2009-04-15T23:34:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Life is like a wheel, one day you are up (happy) and another you will be down(sad). As for me, I guess I am at the nadir or the wheel currently and I feel like it has been stationary there for quite sometime; I am waiting for it to go up.

Currently I am hit with so many dugaan and cubaan. I am still thankful to Him for blessing me with these many trials which constantly remind me how fragile and how undignified I am to Him. May this be a journey in my life that teaches me how Great is Him the Almighty.

To those who have been questioning how I am doing after NS, the answer is hectic but dull. I sincerely miss NS. Life as a medic is truly great, we get to see sick people. Unstable not only on the outside but also the inside. I am thankful that I am blessed with an opportunity to understand my society even more closely. Through the calls that I've responded to, I've learn how fragile one's life can be. Life and death can switch in just a matter of seconds. We are so boastful sometimes, as a Teacher, as a Doctor, as a Lawyer, as a President, as a Singer, as a Leader, as a Rich Fella... We are never complete people; we are imperfect. How great a Teacher can you be without a student? How great a Doctor you can be without a patient? How great a President that you can be without a nation? How great a Rich Fella you can be without the poor? Without the poor, you think you can call yourself rich? Without the sick, you think you can call yourself healthy? Without the unlucky buggers, you think you can call yourself lucky? We all need each other. There will always be someone better than us, and also always there's someone worse than us.

Anyway, I am leaving for a short trip, insyaAllah. I will talk about this trip when the time comes. I am putting everything else to a halt, now concentrating on the preparation for this trip. My hair is getting very long, looking pretty haggard now but everything will change hopefully after my return from the trip and need to prepare for university soon!!!

2009-03-03T11:56:00.006+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I thought I would be much more free after my last duty but hmmm I guess not. I am becoming more and more busy. I am most probably not free this whole month. Am really sorry to friends and family members whom I've declined any kind of meetings with. Am truly sorry, Ana Asiif!

Recently, in Malaysia they had this concert in conjuction with Maulidur Rasul, Konsert Malam Sinar Maulidur Rasul which feature Rabbani, Mawi, Ustaz Akhil Hayy, Haji Amy Search, Ustazah Siti Nor Bayyah and best of all Dato' Hajjah Siti Nurhaliza. Thought of going to Kuala Lumpur to catch it but got something important on. Heard that Ustazah Siti Nor Bayyah moved the whole crowd to tears. A BIG well done with a capital 'W' to the organisers and sponsors. Here are some pictures by Minaq_Jinggo.

Anyway, now am preparing and working on a special ORD Blog Entry, so wait up... It is coming soon! Meanwhile enjoy this song by Sami Yusuf entitled Hasbi Rabbi sung in 4 different languages which are English, Arbic, Hindi and Turkish languages, MasyaAllah!

2009-02-15T20:47:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Salam takziah kepada Dato' Siti Nurhaliza ke atas pemergian Ayahanda yang tercinta untuk menyambut panggilan Illahi. Somoga rohnya dicucuri rahmatNya. Al-Fatihah.

2009-02-11T00:51:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Sometimes I wondered if my expectations of them are way too high, am I expecting too much from them? I don't know why is it so hard to follow instructions and learn quickly... Does to have the basic respect for your seniors and all, need to be taught? Is giving back to me what I've given you so hard? At times, I think I am so strong emotionally to give them whatever they are unable to give me back! Give me the strength and guidance!

Anyway, watched Bride Wars with Kenneth last Sunday after having a lunch to celebrate my father's birthday at Eatzi Restaurant, Yishun Safra! I didn't know Eatzi Restaurant is a halal branch of Jack's Place. Nice food and good ambience. Enjoyed catching up with Kenneth at the MacDonalds!

2009-02-01T21:41:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Yesterday, attended a ceramah entitled "Keganasan, Punca & Penawarnya". by MHDS led by Ustaz TM Fouzy at Bedok Stadium. It began with solat Fardhu Maghrib followed by solat Sunnat Hajat. It was a very meaningful concourse and I was truly glad to be one of the participant. In his ceramah, he did not only talk about the current war in Gaza but also about the war in a smaller scale that we are all facing unsubconsciously. This is the war our hearts is facing. Even a slight ego or angst is actually a war. It is war between our heart trying hard not to succumb to the murmur of Devil. The way we talk to our parents and other family members, is it "peaceful" enough? The way we react to the foolishness and the mistakes our friends accidentally commit? The war in Gaza, I believe, started with just angst and an enormous ego of the various leaders, then translated to fiery speech and then lead to a BIG war. Don't look at the big war and start pinpointing the mistakes-doers that cause it, but look at us, look at our minute war that we are struggling with everyday. This may lead to a big war too. Expel all the angst and ego that we have in our heart. Who are we to have that ego? Who are we to be angry? Who are we to exhibit the arrogance? While we know there is a MIGHTY who grants and bless us with all the wealth, health, strength, intelligence and handsomeness we have. It all comes from Him. We always forget.

Talking about ego, we guys always think that we are better than our partners. Even though we love them, sometimes we think they are disposable, not realising that they are actually an integral part of us. Appreciate them men! Oh wait, after reading this, please do not think that I am attached now. I am not; still single and available. I am saying this after listening to Dato' Siti Nurhaliza's latest soundtrack for Perempuan Berkalung Sorban entitled Batasku Asaku. Guys, this is a song dedicated to you from your dear life partners...

Bila kutercipta dari tulang rusukmu

Mengapa kumampu sempurnakan hidupmu

Bila ku ada karena kau ada

Mengapa kau tak bisa sendiri saja...

Batasku Asaku, OST Perempuan Berkalung Sorban, Dato' Siti Nurhaliza, Attan Hardillas

2009-01-27T16:34:00.008+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Just would like to track back a bit, on 10th January 2009, I have finally met up with my Yishun Primary School peeps. These are the people that I have known for quite some time, some up to 15 years already. I have known Huda and Syarif since I was 5 years old. Rashid was in the same class as me all the way in the entire 6 years of primary school education. Am glad that we are still contacting and seeing each other. Usually, we will only meet during Hari Raya to visit Cikgu Sadiah, but Alhamdulillah this year we got to meet again for a non-Hari Raya gathering. It feels weird to see one another not in baju kurung or kebaya like usual. We went to eat at Arab Street and then had a Shisha session after the dinner. To spice things up, Huda brought her old diary where most of us did write our "decorated" and "elaborated" profiles in it. When I looked at mine, gosh I did not know where to bury my face. Many spelling mistakes and stupid stuffs that I wrote! But yeah, it reminded me that I was once a child and childish. Coming up, it will be a YPS picnic gathering at East Coast Park. More interestingly, I will be planning it with someone whom I've known when I was 1 day old. She was born a day later and we both cukur-ed our jambul on a same event.

2009-01-18T10:03:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Finally the day has come. I really hope it would be a full u-turn for me henceforth. The past is something that I wish to occult them if only possible. I felt so stupid, ididotic doing certain things. Nevertheless, I am who I am now, regardless good or bad, thanks to all the things I have done in the past which had me better. No matter how bad or bitter these things were, they make me a better person. Anything that doesn't kill you will only make you better. I am hoping for a change, a true change. Taubatan nasuha. InsyaAllah...

Ada tiada rasa dalam jiwa

Rindu akan memanggilMu

Kerna setiap jiwa telah bersumpah

Setia hanyalah kepadaMu

Bila cinta ada di dalam jiwa

Wangi bunga dunia tanpa nestapa

Segala yang dirasa hanyalah Dia

Hatikan memuja hanya padaNya

Ketika cinta memanggil

Gementar tubuhku

Ketika cinta memanggil

Hangatnya nafasku

Ketika cinta memanggil

Menderu sang rindu

Ketika cinta memanggil...

Rindu rindu rindu kalbu

Memanggil-manggil namaMu

Seperti terbang di langitMu

Tenggelam di lautan cintaMu

Ah... uh... ah... ah...

Berpadu kalbu yang rindu

Melebur menjadi satu

Bagai menari bagai diiringi pelangi

Ketika cinta memanggil

Ketika Cinta, Dato' Siti Nurhaliza, Opick, OST Perempuan Berkalung Sorban

2009-01-10T11:05:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Alhamdulillah I am finally 21. Truthfully, I did not have any celebrations for this one, I am not hoping for presents but just DOAs from the rest. Thank you so much to those who have send birthday wishes to me. Thank you, all gladly appreciated.

2008-12-29T18:58:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Salam Maal Hijrah 1430 Hj to all Muslimin and Muslimat. Yesterday went to Masjid Darul Makmur for the occasion. Started at 1745 hr with Zikir and Istighfar followed by a syarahan "Muhasabah Sempena Tahun Baru" by Ustaz Fatris Bakaram who is also the Deputy Mufti of Singapore. I was really touched on how down to earth he is being someone great. The way he speaks, the way he carry himself is really admirable. While waiting for the adzan, we recite Doa Akhir Tahun later Istighfar. Then we performed solat Maghrib then followed with bacaan Doa Tahun Baru. Ended at around 2130 hr with supper of Nasi Briyani and other dishes. I was lucky to be on leave yesterday enabling me to attend the occasion. Alhamdulillah.

Anyway, on the previous night duty, I attended this call with call text, "A German Shepherd bite both my maid and my dog. Both are bleeding" Hmmm... So how it all happened. This maid of the caller went to walk her dog, by chance a cute Dalmatian. On a personal note, it was my first time seeing a real Dalmatian. It really reminded me of my childhood - 101 Dalmations remember? Indeed it was very pretty and obedient, trying to sniff me and all. At the same time, another maid was walking her dog too, a German Shepherd without a muffle. Now I know, that there is a rule that certain breed of dogs need to be muffled whenever they are out of the house. poor Dalmatian and the maid, was bitten by the German Shepherd. More heart-wrenching, the Dalmatian was deaf. It was adopted by the caller few weeks before that and was about to put to sleep because it was deaf.

Huh? Just because it is deaf, it gives you the right to take its life? Gosh, human being! We treated the disabled human beings nicely as taught since young by our parents, teachers and the media but what about disabled animals? When the mad cow disease happened, many cows were killed. Later the pig disease, thousands of pigs were killed. Then, the pandemic Bird Flu came, thousands of birds lost their lives... When it is associated to animals, we PEOPLE can easily kill them having an alibi that the disease they are carrying are contagious, but what happen when diseases which are human-borne start to kill people rampantly. Do we kill the affected ones just like we do it to the animals so that it wont be passed to other people? Like AIDs, SARs, TBs and all. We talk too much about being passionate with one another, as we are blessed with something called LIFE. But what about those animals? Aren't they blessed too? They have a guaranteed place in the heaven! Even if they need to be put away, do it nicely, not like just bury them alive. Few years ago, on the news, it showed piglets being pushed into a big hole and later burried. Mankind? Modernisation is eating into it much lately. We need a BIG if not HUGE self-reflection!

2008-12-28T10:24:00.007+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Met Ismail, Kenneth and Saddiq for breakfast yesterday at A & Z Eating Place along Sembawang Road. I had Bihun Soto and my favourite Almond Milk. We did a lot of catching up with one another. Ismail is practically enjoying his off days and counting his days to ORD, Saddiq is now undergoing his vocational training and Kenneth and me, still slogging off. I ahve 74 more days before my ORD date which breaks down to 37 working days before subtracting my leaves.

Anyway in the midst of the breakfast, I overheard Dato' Siti Nurhaliza's latest single being played on the radio. So, I was quite sure that the album is already here in Singapore after its launching on the 26th December 2008 in Malaysia. I did try calling Muzika Rekods Joo Chiat on the 24th December 2008 enquiring when is Lentera Timur coming to Singapore as they are always the first in Singapore to bring in Malaysian and Indonesian albums. According to one of the salesman, he said that the earliest the album will be here one week after its launching. Ya, I take it as a fact that I need to believe and live with it, so be patient and just wait! After listening to the song Di Taman Teman on the radio yesterday's morning, I decided to call them again and ask again, guess what the same salesman whom I believe was the one talking to me 2 days ago said?

Izwan: Hi, I would like to enquire about Siti Nurhaliza's latest album. Is it already here?

Salesman: Oh, we just sold the last copy. But we are ordering more, might be coming next

week.

What the heck men, they are not being professional. Once I reached home, I tried calling Muzika Rekods Tanjong Katong asking if they still have a copy of the album and checked with them if Muzika Rekods Joo Chiat still has it or not. Another bloody answer, "Oh it is not here yet, as for at Joo Chiat, I am not sure..." Gosh, is this how you guys do business. I am not a genius when it comes to business theory and all but at least I know its fundamentals. SO not professional with a big 'P'. These are some of the shots of Dato Siti Nurhaliza's latest album cover. From Sitizone.com

Should only if I drive, I would have drove all the way to Kuala Lumpur to get my hands on this Lentera Timur! Haiz...

2008-12-26T17:42:00.007+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Went out with Ismail, Monisha and Nabil to Wendy's Spice Hut at Jalan Gelenggang off Thomson Road. They served North Indian Food. Ismail and I had Cheese Naan while Nabil and Monisha had Garlic Naan. The naan they served smell so good and they are very soft. We also ordered Palek Panneer (Spinach and Cheese), Butter Chicken, Chicken Tandoori and Chili Fish. My favourite has to be the naan dipped in Chili Fish sauce. Everything tasted decently good, not bad but not the best Indian food I've tasted. Pictures are taken using Ismail's Panasonic Linux and they are on the way. Come on Ismail, I know that camera of yours is super duper goody goody good, I want to see them on screen! Anyway, thank you so much to Ismail for finding out and picking out our food-tasting session yesterday. We've tried Thailand Food at Siam Kitchen Restaurant, later Vegetarian Indian Food at Bombay Cafe then North Indian Cuisine at Wendy's Spice Hut. Next it will be Malay and Indonesian Cuisine at Hajah Maimunah Restaurant on Tuesday before watching Nanyang Polytechnic's annual Malay Musical and Ismail's sister is playing Saloma if I remember correctly.

Even though they were only 4 of us yesterday but we really enjoyed ourself, laughed a lot too. We also talked about how we human being sometimes behave according to their mood. At times we feel like being childish, being crazy, being bitchy and all... I do not feel this is being hypocrite or what but it is just we being human being. We don't have a fix personality. Do you realise you behave differently in the company of different groups such as your family, friends, teachers, sergeants, boss or even your partner. Strange but indeed it is a fact of us being a complex creation. So people, just follow the flow but always remember everything has its limit... do not over do being crazy, childish, bitchy or even being a goody!

Anyway, after eating the food, Monisha lend me her iPod to listen to some Hindi songs. Wah... it really engender such a good feeling. Imagine listening to good, shoulder -convulsing, leg-tapping, hips-spinning Hindi songs. This certainly reminds me of my late sister who loved Hindi's songs and movies to core... She even remember some of the verses in the movies and songs. Definitely she influenced me into liking them too. Can't deny, they are good. Oh guys, enjoy one of my favourite Hindi song from Kuch Kuch Hota Hai... I am sure many of you guys know this one...

2008-12-19T17:00:00.006+08:00

Assalamualaikum. This last few weeks, I have been so busy with family and friend outings. Now, I want to concentrate on... myself! Anyway, am patiently waiting for the release of Dato' Siti Nurhaliza's latest album, Lantera Timur on the 26th of December 2008, that is like only 7 days from now. One of her song's lyric goes like this...

Tulusnya kembang suci bunga
Harum cinta Kuntum syurga
Burung berbisik tanpa dusta
Masih manja Asyik fanaa

Di kala malam tidurkan senja
Bintang menjahit baju lena
Semenjak fajar hingga purnama
Kau masih setia...
Di Taman Teman, Lantera Timur, Dato' Siti Nurhaliza, Fauzi Marzuki, Hairul Anuar Haron

And.. Dato' Siti Nurhaliza just recently released the soundtrack of Hanung Bramantyo's Perempuan Berkalung Sorban. The song is entitled Ketika Cinta. The lyrics are as follow:

Ada tiada rasa dalam jiwa
Rindu akan memanggil-Mu
Kerna setiap jiwa t’lah bersumpah
Setia hanyalah kepada-Mu

Bila cinta ada di dalam jiwa
Wangi bunga dunia tanpa nestapa
Segala yang dirasa hanyalah Dia
Hati ‘kan memuja hanya pada-Nya

Ketika cinta memanggil
Gemetar tubuhku
Ketika cinta memanggil
Hangatnya nafasku
Ketika cinta memanggil
Menderu sang rindu
Ketika cinta memanggil

Rindu… rindu… rindu qalbu
Memanggil-manggil nama-Mu
Seperti terbang di langit-Mu
Tenggelam di lautan cinta-Mu

Berpadu qalbu yang rindu
Melebur menjadi satu
Bagai menari diiringi pelangi
Ketika cinta memanggil
Ketika Cinta, OST Perempuan Berkalung Sorban, Dato' Siti Nurhaliza, Opick

2008-12-07T23:21:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Just got a call from my relatives from my village back in Malacca conveying a message that one of my neighbour there has just passed away. Innalillah wainalillah hiro jiun. Al-Fatihah. Jenazahnya akan dikebumikan pada esok hari selepas Solat Sunat AidilAdha. I wonder how her 5 daughters coping with the passing of their beloved mother at this festive season. Their father just passed away about 2 years ago. I hope they are blessed with great emotional strength to go through this. God will only test us within our abilities.

To all, Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha, ampun dan maaf dipinta bagi lahir dan batin.

2008-11-27T17:12:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Haji season is here again, Alhamdulillah. Most of the Singaporean pilgrims have made their way to Madina or Mecca. I pray a safe journey to and fro for all pilgrims who are going to be Allah's guest this year, insyaAllah. I hope my turn will come soon. I also pray for Thailand's pilgrims who are stucked in Bangkok International Airport. Hopefully, their journey will be made easy and get to Madina and Mecca as soon as possible. I am really jealous of those who are in Madina and Mecca to study as I get to know from a source that some of them get to perform their pilgrimage as schools are on holiday this season. How cool can that be! Apart from this, they get to perform their solat in Masjidil Nabawi and Masjidil Haram respectively. For those whose family members are going, please dont be sad, I know it is inevitable as tears will definitely roll down our cheeks, but just remember they are going for a good!

Kepada semua para jemaah haji 1429 Hj, saya ingin mengucapkan selamat menunaikan rukun Islam yang ke lima ini. Bagi mereka yang terkandas perjalanannya di Lapangan Terbang Internasional Bangkok untuk ke Tanah Suci, saya berdoa agar perjalanan mereka diteruskan dan dipermudahkan, insyaAllah. Ya Allah, betapa kagumnya saya pada para jemaah ini semua kerana insyaAllah mereka akan menjadi para tetamu Allah di masjid teragung di dunia iaitu Masjidil Haram. Dari padang Arafah lalu ke Muzdalifah, bermalam di Mina untuk melontor tiga jumrah. Padang Arafah... Padang Masyar, tempat kita semua berhimpun nanti. Saya berdoa agar diberikan kesempatan, keimanan, rezeki, kesihatan dan keluangan waktu untuk menunaikan fardhu Haji ini. Saya ada target yang tersendiri, Alhamdulillah, kalau nak kata seru tu sudah ada, tetapi fulusnya masih belum kecukupan lagi. InsyaAllah, tidak lama lagi.

2008-11-24T15:56:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Watched the film "SEPI" last night with my parents and I must say this is the best movie I've ever watched this year. Better than Kite Runner, better than Sex and The City and even Ayat-Ayat Cinta. Finally a Malaysian movie touched me. Before this, it was Ayat-ayat Cinta from Indonesia. Kudos to Director Kabir Bhatia, Producer Ahmad Puad Onah, Script Writer Zie Cinta and Music Director Pacai for such a great movie. Out of 10, I will give it a 8.5.

The story binds 3 chapters of the lives of Adam, Sufi and Imaan. The moments of loneliness but amidst of it, they realise that God is Great as He bless us human beings with one great thing called LOVE and the best part is Love do not only come once in our life, Cinta tak datang hanya sekali . Apart from the great movie, it also got a great OST sang by KrisDayanti's sister, Yuni Shara. Following, are my favourite lines in the movie...

Sufi: Saya lari ... tak boleh berhenti

Marya: Awak ni lari meninggalkan sesuatu atau awak lari kepada sesuatu?

***

Sufi: Dulu saya sangka, cinta datang sekali dalam hidup, tapi saya dianugerahkan cinta kedua.
Takdir menentukan kita tak dapat bersama hari ini, tapi saya percaya kita akan bersama
suatu hari nanti

Ean: Bisikku pada bulan

Kembalikan

Temanku...

Kekasihku...

Syurgaku...

Tanpa dia, malam menemanku

Sepi memelukku

Bulan jangan biar siang

Biar alam ini kelam

Biar ia sepi sepertiku...

Adam: Suzy, dengar cakap saya. Saya tak boleh mengahwini awak.
Suzy: Huh?

Adam: Saya tak mencintai awak. Dan saya rasa kita perlu mengahwini orang yang kita cintai sebelum dia hilang buat selamanya. Saya nak habiskan setiap saat hidup saya bersama orang yang saya kahwin

2008-11-20T10:20:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. It has been quite sometime since I last blogged about my dear idola Dato' Hajjah Siti Nurhaliza. Recently, she is ranked number 2 after Jay Chou as Asia's Best Musical Artist by MTV Asia. Am really proud of her. For the time being, she is busy with the production of her latest album and up to date, she has recorded 6 out of 13 songs and scheduled to do her photography shots for the album cover next week. I am really anticipating that this is going be a great Traditional Album as the songs are composed by great composer such as Katon Bagaskara, M Nasir, Pak Ngah and S. Atan.

On a sidenote, guys, you can now contact me via my hp. I am still retaining my old number.

2008-11-16T16:38:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Before this, I didn't know that we have quite a sum of Islamic portal in Singapore. We have like invoke.sg, islamicevent.sg, ceramahislam.sg and many more. I love these portals as they are very informative and I am glad that even though in a country so advanced like Singapore, some are still using the technology to outbring and explore the chances in bringing and informing the people about religious knowledge. Great... In Singapore, we do see mats, minahs rep and more often than not, we see them as the typical Malay or even more sadly typical Muslim but I beg to differ. They are certainly not the typical Malay or Muslim.Well, cant really blame the mass as the media potrays the Malay socuiety that way. Haiz, sad right? Once Wardina who herself is an actress said, "I don't understand why the actors and actresses want to dress sexy-maxi-sexy-taxi and all while what they are suppose to do is to be part of media which reflects the society itself". So to what extent does the saying, "The media is the reflection of the society" is true? I think Singapore Malay media is too wayward reflecting the peccancy of the Malay society in Singapore. How I wish suria or sensasi produce something like Ayat-Ayat Cinta or Tain 3T. Not Gelora or even Anak Metropolitan.

2008-11-12T18:51:00.002+08:00

Aku semakin jauh hanyut ke dasar kesesatan
Aku ingin pulang ke jalan yang benar
Mampukah aku yang bernoda dan bernista ini...
Terus dilimpahi berkahnya
Dasar aku manusia yang tidak tahu bersyukur ke atas nikmatNya
Ya Pemilik Alam, aku mohon...
Berilah aku pelita agar aku dapat menerangi kegelitaan
Jalan menuju keredhaanMu
Permudahkanlah ia...
Aku ingin pulang

2008-11-10T20:31:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Finally got my November leave. How I wish I can bring forward my leaves to next year and "ORD" around 2 months earlier. Anyway, enjoying my leave for now. Went for Diwali Party hosted by Monisha and family. Fabulous food were served and one of them is white Chenna! Played "The Wolf, The Murderer" coordinated by Max. I don't know why I am always killed innocently by the villagers. They said I have that kind of cunning eyes? Do I? Hahahha... And sorry Moon, we had to leave early. Nevertheless, had lots of fun with Monisha and Family and Friends, Ismail, Fazlan and SASHA Fierce.

Just got a call from a paramedic. We talked regarding certain things. I am glad that whatever I felt about this something all this while, she finally realise the difficulty that I have been facing. And now many people are seeing via my perspective. I do not have to complain all the way up to my OC, but I belive one day, people will see and know how I feel. Just do your work, dont let this little nitty gritty stuffs let you off your grip! Hold tight to your faith and be sincere!

2008-10-30T23:01:00.006+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Finish reading Ketika Cinta Bertasbih 1 & 2. I will be talking about it in Malay, baru feeling ada masyukkk...

Bismillahhirohmaannirohhim. Ketika Cinta Bertasbih. Sebuah dwilogi yang cukup menarik. Lebih menarik lagi, penulis Habbiburahman El-Shirazy pandai menyulam unsur-unsur fiqih dalam paduan jilid bukunya ini. MasyaAllah, sedemikian hebatnya. Mengenali penulis hebat ini menerusi Ayat-ayat Cinta, saya rasa bersyukur kepada Allah swt kerana masih ada lagi penulis sebaiknya yang berminat memukau pembaca dengan jalan cerita rekaanya yang diuliti dengan keindahan unsur-unsur Islami. Berbalik kepada dwilogi ini, saya merasakan masih ada kekurangannya di samping kehebatannya.

Terlalu banyak watak yang diperkenalkan lalu dihidupkan watak-watak itu dengan konflik lantas membuatkan dwilogi ini sarat dengan watak-watak yang tidak langsung memberi impak pada penutup cerita. Watak-watak sepert Tiara, Cut Mala, Fadhil, Hafiz, Marshitah dan sebagainya. Tiara dikahwinkan kepada temannya si Fadhil sementara rasa cinta terjalin di antara mereka membuak-buak hebatnya. Hafiz bergelora dalam getaran hebat Cut Mala, adik kepada Fadhil. Azzam melaksanakan janjinya dengan mengkhabarkan kepada Fadhil tentang keinginan Hafiz untuk menkhitbah adiknya Cut Mala, tetapi ianya cuma tergantung di situ sahaja. Alangkah baiknya jika ia terus diberi nyawa dalam dwilogi ini sampai ke penghujung cerita.

Dwilogi ini bahkan juga sarat dengan fakta-fakta yang saya rasa tidak begitu perlu kerana cuma sedikit sekali impaknya kepada Ketika Cinta Bertasbih. Contohnya fakta tempatnya berdiri Hotel Le Meridien yang didiami oleh Furqan. Contohnya, Hotel Le Meridien terletak di sebelah pasar Sayyeda Zainab, berhadapan dengan Masijid Al-Azhar, berdekatan dengan tempat Kedutaan Indonesia di Mesir dan selanjutnya. Begitu juga dengan fakta tentang latar belakang Pesantren di Wangen. Pak Kiai ini berkahwin dengan Bu Nyai yangini, lalu lahirlah seorang anak bernam Pak Kiai ini dan langsung bertemu dengan seorang gadis, lalu dinikahi mendapat anak dan salah seorang darinya ada Pak Kiai Lutfi yang berkahwin dengan Bu Nyur dan lahirlah anak gadis mereka yang sedang menuntut S2 di Kaherah, Mesir. Dua perkara ini, saya rasakan jika dielakkan, ianya akan menjadi sebuah dwilogi yang lebih menarik, InsyaAllah.

Jalan cerita yang menarik oleh penulis prolifik begitu menyentuh jiwa. Ianya lebih menyengat dari Ayat-Ayat Cinta. Ketika Cinta Bertasbih bukan sahaja menyingkap tentang cinta dua mempelai, tetapi juga cinta adik-beradik, ibu dan anak dan cinta antara teman. Pada permulaan cerita, Azzam sudah menaruh harapan untuk mengkhitbah Anna Althafunnisa tetapi ditolak oleh sepupunya Anna kerana Anna sudahpun dirisik oleh Furqan, teman Azzam sendiri. Azzam sedar dirinya bukan sesiapa selain penjual tempe dan bakso yang mengambil 9 tahun untuk menghabiskna BAnya. Azzam tidak memberontak bahkan bersyukur, baginya penolakan dari pihak Anna itu memberi luang kepadanya untuk menumpukan kepada tanggungjawab utamanya iaitu menampung kehidupan adik-adiknya iaitu Ayatul Husna, Lia dan Sarah serta ibunya. Dia pernah membantu Anna yang kehilangan barang di Mesir. Sejak itu, Anna merasa kagum akan keberanian dan kesopanan Azzam. Namun setelah beberapa pergolakan yang dihadapinya, setelah kembali ke Kartasura, dia ingin menikah. Husna disunting oleh Ustaz Ilyas yang pernah merisik Anna tetapi juga ditolak kerana Furqan telah mendahuluinya. Azzam bertemu dengan pelbagai gadis untuk dijadikan pendamping hidupnya yang sekejap itu. Setelah Elliana, Rina, Tika, Eva dan seterusnya Vivi. Dia hampir bernikah dengan Vivi tetapi sehari sebelum pernikahannya, dia telah bertemu dengan sebuah kemalangan bersama ibunya yang meninggal dunia setelah itu. Azzam memerlukan setahun untuk pulih seperti sediakala tetapi Vivi telah dipaksa oleh ibunya untuk berkahwin dengan pria yang lain. Azzam pasrah dan menyerahkan segalanya pada Allah swt.

Anna telah bercerai dengan Fuqan tetapi dia merupakan janda berhias. Furqan masih belum mengusik keperawanannya kerana dia diberitahu bahawa dia mengahadapi AIDs oleh doktor di Mesir setelah bertemu gambar lucahnya bersama Ms Italiana. Setelah enam bulan berkahwin, barulah Furqan berterus terang dengan Anna. Anna meminta diceraikan. Anna bersyukur kerana mahkotanya masih belum disentuh oleh Furqan. Azzam pasrah akan nasibnya. Begitu juga Anna. Azzam yang tinggal di Kartasura sering berpergi balik ke Wangen untuk mengajar di Pesantren kelolaan bapanya Anna, Pak Kiai Lutfi. Dia mengajar kitab Al-Hikam di sana. Suatu hari setelah beliau pulih sepenuhnya, Azzam pergi ke rumah Pak Kiai Lutfi untuk memintanya meng"recommend"kannya salah seorang pelajar gadis di pesantrennnya itu untuk dijadikan isterinya. Maklumlah, dia sudah berusia 30 tahun. Pak Kiai teringat akan anaknya yang sudah tamat edahnya, dia bertanyakan kepada Azzam jika dia sudi memperisterikan seorang janda berhias yang telah tamat edahnya. Azzam menjawab, "Asalkan dia solehah Pak". Azzam amat terkejut dan terkesima apabila Pak Kiai memberitahunya gadis itu adalah tidak lain dan tidak bukan Anna Althafunisa. Anna dan Khairul merasakan bagai bulan jatuh ke riba kerana selama ini mereka memang menaruh kasih antara satu sama lain. Khairul Azzam dinikahkan dengan Anna Althafunisa setelah sholat Maghrib pada hari itu juga. Setelah mereka menikah, Furqan memberitahu kepada Anna bahawa doktor di Mesir telah memberinya analisa darah yang salah. Dia sememangnya tidak dijangkiti penyakit marabahaya itu. Anna memberitahu kepada Furqan yang dia sudah bersuami dan menyarankannya untuk menikah demgan Eliana yang selama ini ingin menikah dengan Azzam tetapi ditolak kerana dia bukan seorang muslimah solehah yang diidamkan oleh Azzam. Inilah JODOH yang dijanjikan oleh Allah swt. Jikalau sudah ditakdir dia itu jodohku, macam mana tidak mungkin sekalipun, tatkalan Allah swt berfirman "Kun Faya Kuun", maka yang tidak bisa terjadi akan menjadi realisasi. Begitu juga dengan jodoh... Aku masih menunggu jodohku... Semacam mana baik dirriku, dia juga sebaik itu. Semacam mana buruk dirinya itu, aku juga seburuk itu. Ini janjinya dalam Surah An-Nur ayat ke 26:

Lazimnya) perempuan-perempuan yang jahat adalah untuk lelaki-lelaki yang jahat, dan lelaki-lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan-perempuan yang jahat dan (sebaliknya) perempuan-perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki-lelaki yang baik, dan lelaki-lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan- perempuan yang baik. Mereka (yang baik) itu adalah bersih dari (tuduhan buruk) yang dikatakan oleh orang- orang (yang jahat) mereka (yang baik) itu akan beroleh pengampunan (dari Allah) dan pengurniaan yang mulia

Terjemahan Ar-Rahman

More interestingly, these books will be made to movie : KETIKA CINTA BERTASBIH by SineMart Indonesia. The shooting just started mid June 2008 and in October, they are doing their shoot in Cairo and Alexandria in Eqypt.

2008-10-26T11:42:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Currently, I am not using a handphone. My phone was stolen. SO, there's no way for you guys to contact me via my mobile. Therefore, kindly contact me through my e-mail or residence's number. Thanks.

2008-10-22T10:18:00.002+08:00

My kampung cousins whom I love all!

2008-10-19T11:46:00.028+08:00

Assalamualaikum. These are some things that I do during my Raya visit to my Kampung in Malacca!

1. To eat a lot!

2. To pose for phototaking sessions

3. To lepak around the "buaian", swing area

4. To help find "buluh" to make "lemang"

5. To enjoy the beauty of nature!

2008-10-11T17:33:00.012+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Hari Raya... Hari Raya... Hari Raya... "GOLDen" year !

Aisy is getting rounder!

A daddy's charm!

Rayaan nak duit raya tak?

My sister's family!

There's still a missing link...

2008-09-29T08:27:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum. 2 more days to go and we will transit to a month of glory and happiness. Syawal 1429 Hj. Saya, Muhammad Izwan, memohon ampun dan maaf jika ada kelakuan saya yang tidak anda senangi, dan mohon halalkan segala makan minum saya yang anda tanggungi.

Sebulan puasa kita jalani

Manahan lapar dan segala noda

Sepuluh jariku susuni

Kemaafan lahir dan batin dipinta

Rendang sekuali dimasak ibu

Ketupat palas dianyam halus

Takbir dialun penuh syahdu
Seribu keampunan dimohon tulus

Langsir megah menghiasi jendela

Semakin berseri dengan kebaya

Hari raya disambut dengan penuh gembira

Buat semua tidak kira miskin kaya

Amboi cantik berkebaya nonya

Elok rupa bak puteri kayangan

Ramadhan suci menutup tirainya

Semoga dapat bertemu di tahun hadapan

Kuih tart dan makmur dijadikan jamuan

Gembira ditamu sahabat dan taulan

Tamatnya Ramadhan menyambut Lebaran

Maaf dipinta membuka baru satu lembaran

2008-09-20T06:55:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Went to break fast with my Paya Lebar Fire Station EAS peeps at Hajah Maimunah Restaurant last Wednesday. It was pretty successful actually with 17 people turning up. This is the first time an outing as such is organised. I am so thankful that the people gave their best corporation with me, and even those who were working night duty that day, still made it for the outing. Thank you Hasnon, Kak Wati, Ilham, Zohri, Patrick, Najeeb, Encik Norizan, Adam, Fakhruddin(photographer), Shaiful, Rifai, Nabil, Fairuz, Ramiz, Salizal and Gf. They were all happy with the choice of restaurant. Thank you to Hajah Maimunah for your corporation and the array of delicious dishes! Those who make their debut presence in Hajah Maimunah Restaurant were happy with the ambience and food. Alhamdulillah. Pictures are coming up soon. Guys, thank you for making this plan of mine a success!

2008-09-12T18:26:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Had a morning session of tuition today. Haiz, being a tutor is not easy. We have to clear all the "shit" left by their school teachers. It is indeed hard to be a teacher but I don't understand why some teacher don't bother to check if ther students really understand whatever they have taught. When it comes to exams and some of the fail, the teacher will blam the students, "Huh you lazy bum, never study!" Maybe it is human nature to always push their faults to some other people. I am having a pretty hard time making my students to understand what ever they have went through the whole year within a very limited time as their exams are around the corner.

After the session, I went to North Bridge Road. Primarily to cut my hair and do my Friday Prayers at Sultan Mosque. It was my second time praying there. Should I grow up being a very successful and rich man, I will insyaAllah donate some money to the mosque; improving its infrastructure. It was so peaceful in Sultan Mosque. The atmosphere is just perfect for those who are seeking solace. I thought of buying kuihs at the bazaar but there were too many people. Instead, I bought Zamzam's Murtabaks and Katirahs. Also, ordered 2 books by my most favourite author, Habiburahman El-Shirazy which is Ketika Cinta Bertasbih Jilid 1 and 2. Also bought Syamil's album. He is/was a student from Madrasah Al-Junied. I feel the the need to support as I am really touched by the school's effort to give him this opportunity to utilise his talents. It was a pretty good album entitled 'Munajat'. Well done Madrasah Al-Junied and Syamil, you have a very beautiful voice, masyaAllah.

Unfortunately, I could not stay on to break fast with my dear Bahas friends as I am on standby today. In case I am activated, I have to report back to my base as soon as possible. What to do, NS = Minimum Freedom! Never mind guys, I will try my best to be free on the day you guys going Jalan Raya together, insyaAllah!

2008-09-08T07:50:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Since Hari Raya is coming in 3 weeks time, I would like to play Hari Raya songs on my blog. This is to engender the mood of Hari Raya-ing. I am still thinking of planning a few things like breaking fast session with the ambulance peeps, Raya outing with YPS peeps, Raya outing with NBS peeps and a Raya mega outing with the ambulance peeps as this will be my last Hari Raya as a medic/NSF. Ahhh, Hari Raya Aidilfitri on Syawal 1429 Hijrah. I just cannot wait for it but at the same time, I feel sad that Ramadhan is leaving us soon. In the past, I do not understand the fact that people keep saying that Hari Raya is a day of victory and month of gatherings and forgiveness. I thought the gathering was just at a family level but it isnt. Now, I am a grown-up, I truly believe in it. Apart from the food, and the beautiful traditional clothes, I am also looking forward to all the gatherings. If we sincerely understand the meaning that lies behind Hari Raya Aidilfitri, we will be able to celebrate it in a more appropriate and a memorable way.

2008-09-04T23:02:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Ramadhan is here. Felt a little more peace with no syaitans/iblis around. Hehehe... Anyway, went to CDA last week. Again, forgotten about Luqman. Told him that I would vist him that day but it slipped my mind. Anyway, miss meeting Luqman but I got to meet someone after the session on the way home. I was sleeping on the train and sunddenly felt someone touching me (trying to wake me up). Initially I thought it must some old people who wants the seat to be given to them and there was a bit of urgh... I am sleeping man! And guess what, when I opened my eyes, I saw someone whom I have wanted to meet for a long long long time. And it was none other then my JC buddy, Bashirah. Oh Bashirah! Ahh! We had a lot of catching up to do. Her new school, her new rabbit, my new life, my meetings with sick Singaporean and bla bla bla... The last time we met was last Hari Raya at Cikgu Hani's place. Hopefully, get to meet the IJC, NBSS and YPS peeps during Hari Raya. And of course the Bahas and CD peeps!

2008-08-31T10:30:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. InsyaAllah, tomorrow, all Muslimins will be fasting in the holy month of Ramadhan. It is best if we are able to transit to this holy Ramadhan in state of sanctity. Therefore, I would like to apologise to all and allow me to go through this coming month in peace!

Salam ikhwan, wahai saudara-saudaraku, peliharalah kesucian bulan ini dengan sebaik-baiknya. Sesungguhnya, dalamnya ada terkandung satu malam yang lebih baik dari seribu bulan!

2008-08-15T07:26:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Sempena kedatangan salah sebuah hari mulia bagi orang-orang mukmin iaitu Hari Nifsu Syaaban, saya ingin berkongsi dengan anda kebaikan-kebaikan dan amalan-amalan yang boleh kita usahakan pada hari yang penuh barakah ini.

Pada 16hb Ogos 2008 yang bersamaan dengan 15hb Syaaban 1429hj ini kita akan didatangi sekali lagi hari yang penuh bermakna ini iaitu Hari Nifsu Syaaban, Alhamdulillah; segala puji bagi Allah. Tatkala hari tersebut menjelang, buku catatan amalan kita akan ditukar baru. Selepas Maghribnya pula, segala amalan-amalan kita akan dicatitkan dalam buku yang baru.

Tatkala tibanya hari Nifsu Syaaban ini, umat Islam disunatkan menunaikan solat sunat dua rakaat Nifsu Syaaban setelah tunainya solat fardhu Maghrib. Pada rakaat yang pertama, kita akan membaca surah Al-Fatihah dan surah Al-Qadar satu kali, seterusnya pada rakaat kedua, surah Al-Fatihah disusuli dengan surah Al-Ikhlas tiga kali.

Setelah tamatnya ini, para jemaah akan membaca surah Yasin 3 kali. Untuk Yasin yang pertama, kita memohon dipanjangkan umur kita agar kita dapat bertaubat kepadaNya, yang kedua adalah untuk kita memohon rezeki yang halal juga untuk beribadat kepadaNya dan untuk yang ketiga kita memohon agar ditetapkan keimanan dan keIslaman kita dan juga mohon agar dimatikan kita dalam keadaan beriman dan bolehlah juga kita memohon untuk perkara-perkara yang baik.

Selepas ini, kita beristighfar dan berselawat sebelas kali dan membaca doa Nifsu Syaaban.

Diikuti pula dengan bacaan surah Al-Ikhlas sebanyak seratus kali.

Kita juga disunatkan agar dapat berpuasa sunat pada siang harinya bagi mereka yang berdaya.

Bulan Syaaban atau yang selalu dikatakan sebagai bulan Rasulullah saw ini, banyak kelebihannya. Di antaranya ialah tubuh kita akan diharamkan dari api neraka dan menjadi teman kepada Nabi Yusuf as sekiranya kita berpuasa untuk satu hari dalm bulan Syaaban ini. juga diriwayatkan dari Osman Bin Abi Al-As, sabda Nabi Muhammad (saw) : pada malam nisfu sya'aban setelah berlalu 1/3 malamnya, Allah turun ke langit dunia lalu berfirman : adakah orang-orang yang meminta maka Aku perkenankan permintannya, adakah orang yang meminta ampun maka aku ampunkannya, adakah orang yang bertaubat maka aku terima taubatnya dan diampunkan semua orang mukmin lelaki & perempuan , melainkan orang yang berzina atau orang yang berdendam marah hatinya kepada saudaranya.

Dan, sekiranya ada niat kita untuk merebut ganjaran-ganjaran yang tertera di atas, sebaiknya kita meminta maaf kepada saudara-mara serta ibu-bapa dan kenalan-kenalan kita supaya ibadah kita di terima oleh yang Maha Esa.

Marilah kita sama-sama memanfaatkan peluang yang masih lagi dititipkan kepada kita. Salah seorang teman Rasulullah telah meriwayatkan bahawa pada zaman Rasulullah dahulu kala, dunia ini sudah seperti nenek tua yang sudah membongkok... Ingatlah bahawa kedatangan mati dan kiamat itu adalah sesuatu yang PASTI. Wallahua'lam.

2008-08-10T12:53:00.013+08:00

Singapore Garden Festival 2008, Suntec City Convention Centre

Went there with Saddiq and Saddiqi. It was my first time at the SGF and it was truly an overwhelming experience. I am so takjub looking at the beauty of nature created by The One. And making me a little proud was this flower arrangement done by my fellow Brooksian.

2008-08-10T12:38:00.007+08:00

The Twins' Birthday

Had dinner with the twins and Kenneth at Sakura @ Northpoint to celebrate their birthday. Taken the pictures with handphone's camera. Hope you two like the cards and orchids.

2008-08-10T08:31:00.014+08:00

Dinner at Zam Zam with Ismail and Kenneth

Met them late after my IPPT. It was Kenneth's first time at Zam Zam and I hope he liked it! We ordered Briyanis, Kathiras and Murtabaks

2008-08-10T07:07:00.000+08:00

Celebrating Maslyn, Fazlan and Genevieve Birthdays.

Met Ismail and Monisha at Changi Airport Terminal 2. They were there early to book the cake and seats. So there was Ismail, Maslyn, Fazlan, Monisha, Genevieve and Me. After which, I rushed off to town to shop for my clothes for Remy... P. Ramlee The Musical at the Esplanade that night.

2008-07-23T22:57:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Hahhahahaha. Hey 'An' and Lydia, I supported both TJC and RJC. Ya, maybe I misinterpreted the points by TJC and ya, maybe also the points did not came out as clearly as I thought it would be. Anyway, it is nice to "rasa macam berbahas " pula. Maklumlah dah lama tak berbahas. Hehehe. Congratulations TJC and ya, TJC's debaters are indeed great as all of them won Best Speaker at least once in Bahas 4PM 2008. On my part, I apologise if I have said anything wrong or hurt anyone's feeling.

Anyway, I have this video to share with all of you.

It nearly moved me to tears. Just for a few years of care and love, this lion can remember the one who showered him with all the care and love, but we human beings, can we be able to remember and appreciate our parents who care for us over many, many, many, years? If a lion with no mind can, can us human being who is the most perfect creation of God do the same?

2008-07-20T12:07:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Saya rasa terpanggil untuk mengulas dan menerangkan pendapat saya yang telah saya lahirkan dalam post yang sebelum ini. Pada masa yang sama, saya ingin menjawab tag "an" dalam tagboard saya.

Apabila anda mengatakan bahawa pembahas TJC had a rebuttal for the point I made, saya keliru sebenarnya. Sepatutnya yang rebutt about this ialah pihak RJC dan bukannya pihak penyanggah kerana kumpulan TJC stand yang saya, sebagai seorang penonton, fahamkan ialah Kemaslahatan Bahasa Melayu Bukan Sahaja Terletak Pada Tangan Penuturnya bahkan juga pada tangan penulis, penyajak dan ahli sasterawan yang lain. It is like you guys rebutting your own hujah. Now, this is my point if I am a pencadang.

Kemaslahatan Bahasa Melayu terletak di tangan penuturnya kerana sesebuah bahasa itu akan hanya effektif apabila adanya golongan yang bertutur dengan menggunakan bahasa tersebut. Tatkala ia menjadi effektif dan berguna, barulah timbul kemaslahatannya. Salah sebuah kemaslahatan bahasa Melayu adalah apabila dua pihak dari negara yang berbeza dapat berinteraksi dalam niat ingin menolong ataupun bertukar pendapat. Menolong disini juga boleh dalam bentuk pertolongan yang bervariasi, boleh tolong mendidik, tolong dari segi perubatan, tolong dengan memberi makanan dan sebagainya. Contohnya kalau kita ke Indonesia yang secara kebetulan rakyatnya juga bertutur dalam bahasa Melayu untuk menabur bakti, kita perlu faham dan peka akan keperluan mereka dari segi fizikal mahupun emosi. Untuk memahami perkara ini, kita perlu bertutur dengan mereka demi membolehklan kita memberi dan menyediakan bantuan yang betul-betul dapat meringankan bebanan mereka dan maka terciptalah sebuah kemaslahatan Bahasa Melayu itu sendiri. Dengan ini Bahasa Melayu membolehkan kita menolong mereka dengan lebih effektif lagi menerusi pertuturan.

And to rebutt on the point that Kemaslahatan Bahasa Melayu juga terletak di tangan ahli sasterawan dan sebagainya...

-1. Sesebuah karya perlu diwawarkan untuk pengetahuan ramai dan lantas dihargai orang. Untuk ini, kita perlu berCAKAP kepada orang ramai akan kebaikan sesebuah karya itu. Adakah seorang penulis yang sebaik sahaja bukunya dicetak, terus mendiamkan diri. Perlu mempromosikan bukunya juga, dan bukankah dia memerlukan kita menjadi seorang penutur untuk melakukan demikian? Sebaik manapun sesebuah karya ataupun isinya yang boleh mencipta kemaslahatan bahasa Melayu, penghebahan adalah perlu.

-2. Seorang penyajak, seorang penulis syair, seorang penulis skrip, seorang penulis lirik, menghasilkan kerja mereka untuk apa? Untuk menciptakan kemaslahatan Bahasa Melayu, ia memang benar tetapi ini akan hanya boleh dicapai apabila sebuah sajak itu dideklamasikan, sebuah syair itu dipersembahkan, sebuah skrip itu dilakonkan, sebuah lampiran lirik itu dinyanyikan. Bukankah ini semua juga dalam bentuk pertuturan? Maka kemaslahtan Bahasa Melayu terletak di tangan Penuturnya tidak kira apa tujuan pertuturan yang dilaksanakan.

Anyway, I am just a penonton "an". I am not sore if any of you guys win. RJC or TJC win, how does it affects me. And I am not blaming TJC or anyhow. I only said that RJC had a more structured hujah-hujah but these were not delivered well enough by them! And bravo penggulung RJC as you really did what you should do which is menggulung your kumpulan punyah hujah-hujah and how it back up your group's stand.

And 'an', I think we should open a blog where we can berbahas if you think that you are truly not satisfied with whatever I said. I am not someone who says something just membabi-buta! I am reasonable! And bahas taught me that!

2008-07-19T12:53:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Finally bought the Kite Runner DVD. Reserved it at Sembawang Music Store and got it after 2 weeks. There goes my $44.90 for a Code 1 DVD. Watched it already. Hmmm, it is a very good movie if you have not read the book. I think when you read the book and then watch the movie, you will be disappointed as there are a lot of things shared in the book but not shown in the movie. Well done Khaled Hosseini for writing such a good book and Marc Foster adapting it into a movie. After watching it yesterday, went out at night to meet Ismail and Maslyn for a midnight movie, The Dark Knight. Not bad. A pretty good show. Heath Ledger, I think is the best Joker so far. However, the ending is a bit disappointing, but as you know, it is just to suspense you in waiting for the next sequel of the Batman. 3.5 out of 5!

Anyway, in the afternoon, went to watch Bahas 4PM finals. It was between RJC and TJC. TJC won all the awards for the best speaker, best overall speaker and the overall Champion for Bahas 4PM 2008. For the 8th time, I think TJC deserve to be called the powerhouse of Bahas 4PM. As for IJC, it was very disappointing, no award at all. In 2005, IJC won best speaker once, in 2006, we won two best speaker awards and repeating this history in 2007. The motion for yesterday's debate is "Kemaslahatan Bahasa Melayu terletak pada tangan penuturnya". Well, I thought there werent a variation of points, very close to being a parallel debate. As for RJC, I thought they were more structured and I think the penggulung did a good job but their debaters are not that good. TJC kept saying that kemaslahatan Bahasa Melayu itu juga terletak pada tangan penulis, ahli sasterawan dan bukan sahaja penuturnya. Well, if I am from RJC, I will rebut back by saying that mauduk tidak mengatakan bahawa kemaslahatan bahasa Melayu HANYA terletak pada tangan penuturnya. I think TJC show show how kemaslahatan bahasa Melayu TIDAK terletak pada tangan penuturnya rather than kemaslahatan bahasa Melayu BUKAN HANYA terletak pada tangan penuturnya kerana ada pihak-pihak lain yang meyumbang kepada kemaslahatan Bahasa Melayu. And on a personal note, I think Bahas 4PM's standard is dropping year by year. In 2005, Suanggita from VJC was outstanding, Hannah from MWTI was sensible and calm, Khairul from TPJC was very tactful on his language. In 2006, Farhana from MI was very fiery, Tan Nurhafizah was very patient and clear on her hujah-hujah, Nurhafizah from IJC was very smooth in her presentation of points and rebuttals.

I think 4PM should organise a mega-debating competition for Malay Debate legends like Kak Guy Ghazali, Kak Rahayu, Abanag Shaikh, Faizal, Anita, Syahidah, Suanggita, Redzuan, Nur Hannah and etc... And also, I do want to see people like Pitchay Ghani debate; just to see if he critics current debaters based on his high-knowledge in Malay Language, or on his ability to debate.

And Titian Minda 2008 will be aired on Suria tonight! Ahhh, reminiscence.

2008-07-11T16:14:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum... Happy Birthday to both the twins, Saddiq and Saddiqi! May you two be blessed with happiness, health and wealth! Thanks for accompanying me for all the swimming and jogging sessions!

2008-06-28T12:37:00.010+08:00

Assalamualaikum. It has been a tiring week. Audit is coming. One after another section is being audited. We are all divided into 4 groups and each one is asked to be in charge of a section in this whole EAS thingy in the station. Even though I am in one of the groups, I am helping out in 3 groups' area. Doing the paper work, which is my original sector of work, checking the assets numbers and making sure things that are supposed to be there are there in the ambulance in the stipulated quantity. Apparently, I have an endless trail of job waiting for me. Making things worst, there are so many calls these days...

Nevertheless, I do not want all these things to disrupt my "life". I watched many movies and read some books. I watched Children of Heaven. The 40 Year Old Virgin, V For Vendetta, Anak, Devil Wears Prada and Sex and the City. Read the Kite Runner by Khaled Hossaini and Alun Hidup by Khadijah Hashim over the last 2 weeks. Ah, it feels so good when you complete reading a book. But I guess the higlight of all these is Sex and The City movie and the Kite Runner book. Kite runner is a wonderful book. May not be the best book that I've read but I think is certainly one of the best book that I have read so far. I like book like this, fiction or non-fiction autobiography of Asians', like Chinese Cinderella, The Red Veil, Geisha, Salina and this Kite Runner. Sex and the City was better than I expected. It gives you this "feel-so-good" feeling after watching the whole thing. The beautiful and gorgeous wardrobe and the classness and chicness of the "girls". They intrigued something within my inner soul, questioning things like... Is it possible to hold onto a friendship for that long like that of Miranda's, Samantha's, Carrie's and Charlotte's? Is it possible to have a true friend like Hassan? FRIENDSHIP! When I look at mine, I wish I have one like theirs. But actually I do have one friend, one true friend, maybe not as true as Hassan but I belive he's trueness and sincerity to this friendship of ours. But, I realised that I have not been appreciating it as much as he does. Ohhh idiot me. However, dear friend, I will try to appreciate it as much as you do. I will try my dear friend...

2008-06-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

2008-06-15T20:54:00.001+08:00

Assalalamualaikum. Yeah!!!!!!!!!! MTV Asia Awards is back after a year break. It was last held in Bangkok, Thailand in 2006. As for me, this MTVAA means a lot to me. Apart having Dato' Siti Nurhaliza in it, but because it hold a lot of memories for me and my friends. Looking back, trying to get the tickets for this even was crazy! But we had fun despite being disappointed not getting a single tickets.

Anyway, MTV Asia Awards 2008 will be held at Arena of Stars, Genting Highlands, Malaysia on 2nd August 2008. Dato' Siti Nurhaliza is again nominated for the Favourite Artist for Malaysia. For the past few years, she never missed this award when nominated. Like Stefanie Sun, she was also dropped off from the nomination list in 2006. It has been Stef, Stef, Stef and Siti, Siti, Siti but new names like Taufik Batisah and Mawi garnered the award for respective categories in 2006.

Personally, looking at this event and how my idol was involved in the event yesteryears, it certainly gives me a jolt of pride. She was only given a minute slot in 2003 to sing her Bukan Cinta Biasa, and through that performance, the organizer honoured her to sing Say It Isn't So with internation singer Gareth Gates in 2004. Only in 2005, she was given full credit when she appeared solo on stage in Bangkok to sway the audience with Seindah Biasa. In 2003, Lee from the Blue commented that she is so pretty that he wanted to marry her! In 2004, when asked, sexy Mariah Carey said Siti Nurhaliza was the most impactful Asian Artist for the night of Valentine's Day in 2005, in 2006, she sashayed the red carpet with her beautiful outfit and was named one of the 5 best dressed in MTV Asia Awards history.

Hopefully, she will be honoured again by her fans to "snatch" back the award and will be making her performance and maiden appearance in her tudung. Siti... Siti... Siti... You got to do it right!

2008-06-03T12:57:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Last week was one of the most exciting moments in my life. Back at work, I had my first maternity case. Wah! Tragic and amazing! I got to see everything and live! I am just so takjub dengan kebesaran Tuhan looking at the process! I am so thankful that PM Norwati and FRP Zaidi were both there. PM Norwati was very calm as usual and I really respect her for that. Having all the experience and her selawats, she was a good bidan. The parturition was a fast and "clean" one.

Apart from that, things in station got better, the politics got in control! Relationships between medics got much much better. Helping PM Handy doing all the leave files and dockets was an arduous and onerous task but still, we did it painstakingly. Syed and I are now in-charge of dockets and leave files. Hmmm... Serving the nation, people...

Last weekend, went to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia for my cousin's wedding. It was great getting to gather with family members that we rarely meet and it was nice that we are still close despite meeting occasionally. It was pretty nice and grand for the people there. Got to know that the "pak-andam" is Akademi Fantasia's make-up artist. Gosh, he did the make-up for Saida, Datuk Siti Nurhaliza's sister for the show and ever make-up Ziana Zain. Unfortunately, not Datuk Siti's. There was dance performances, fireworks and one of the highlights is the presence of Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim's daughter who is also one of Malaysian diplomat. The food was pretty delicious and fresh flowers engender the grandeur presence of the pelamin. This make me start thinking of my wedding which will be in ... 7-10 years time?

2008-05-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

A beautiful song that I wish to share with all of you. A song close to heart...

You look at me and see the girl
Who lives inside the golden world
But don't believe
That's all there is to see
You'll never know the real me

She smiles through a thousand tears
And harbors adolescent fears
She dreams of all
That she can never be
She wades in insecurity
And hides herself inside of me

Don't say she takes it all for granted
I'm well aware of all I have
Don't think that I am disenchanted
Please understand

It seems as though I've always been
Somebody outside looking in
Well here I am for all of them to bleed
But they can't take my heart from me
And they can't bring me to my knees
They'll never know the real me
Looking In, Mariah Carey

2008-05-12T09:38:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Watched this film with my parents at Causeway Point's Cathay Cinema yesterday. Arrived at Causeway Point at 5.10 p.m and got to know that the tickets for the 5.25p.m slot were already sold out. My mother suggested to just but the tickets for the next slot at 7.50 pm since we were already there. In the meantime, went around shopping. At 7.10 pm, went up to the cinema and found that the tickets at 7.50 p.m slot were sold out too! Wah, this is my first time seeing a Malay show's tickets sold out two showtime consecutively even after a week released! Anyway, this is what I felt after the show:

Ayat-ayat CINTA

Jodoh itu rahsia Tuhan.

Setiap kali dilimpah bencana mahupun kegundahan jiwa, itulah saatnya ketika Tuhan sedang berbicara dengan kita.

Ikhlas dan Sabar, itulah Islam!

Itulah sedikit palitan skrip dari filem Ayat-ayat Cinta. Banyak yangku pelajari dari filem Indonesia ini. Tayangan layar perak ini diadaptasi dari novel Ayat-ayat Cinta ilham cetusan Habibburahman El Shirazy. Kagum dengan keinginan pengarah untuk menonjolkan kebenaran Islam dalam filem ini. Cinta Fahri dan Aisha berlandaskan pikulan tanggungjawab yang digalas oleh seorang Muslim dan Muslimah. "Perkahwinan itu melengkapkan keimana seseorang Muslim selain daripada menjauhi fitnah" Memang benar apaya yang dikatakan oleh watak Maria bahawa mencinta dan memiliki cinta adalah dua perkara laksana langit dan bumi bezanya. Mencinta hanyalah suatu dambaan. Memanglah tidak hairan mengapa mereka yang sekadar mencinta seringkali tidak dapat merasa betapa besarnya nikmat sebenar cinta! Memiliki cinta bukanlah suatu dambaan bahkan ianya adalah suau pengabdian. Setibanya kita di saat memiliki cinta, semua yang dilakukan berpaksi pada "Cinta" Bertanggungjawab kerana cinta. Berkoban kerana cinta. Berbohong kerana cinta. Berani menghadapi segala rintangang juga kerana cinta. Cinta dengan siapa? Cinta kepada Dia yang Esa, cinta kepada ibu bapa kita yang besar pengorbanan mereka, cinta kepada bumi yang nyata, cinta kepada dia yang sudi bersenyawa. Fahri seorang pria asal Indonesia bertemu jodohnya dengan Aisha seorang gadis asal Jerman di bumi Mesir. Ini menunjukkan kepada kita bahawa jodoh itu rahsia Allah. Janganlah kecewa mahupun berduka bila tidak ketemu cinta yang bisa membuang lara kerana Dia masih lagi mahu berahsia. Mungkin jodohku bukan di Singapura, mungkin di Turkey ataupun Mesir. Itu bisa terjadi keranaku redha' kerana jodoh adalah tetapan Illahi yang Maha Esa. Ketika putusnya cinta yang disangka suci lagi murni, janganlah kita gundah gulana, kerana pastinya Dia masih berahsia.

2008-05-11T09:20:00.002+08:00

Motherly love is the fuel that enables a normal human being to do the impossible.
Marion C. Garretty

Assalamualaikum. I would like to wish all "Mothers" a Happy Mothers' Day! Indeed, we are in this world because of you ...

2008-03-30T10:44:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Watched 'Step Up II' and 'The Leap Years' recently. Step Up II was not as inspirational as I thought it would be. As for 'The Leap Years', just one word to describe the story : Impragmatic! How can you be deeply in love with someone and cancel your proposed marriage with someone that you only met only for 3 times over the 16 years. true enough, people can say that the chemistry and bonding they felt during the maiden date was overpowering but still, in this millenium and not in the match-making era, are you still going to commit your life to someone that you only met 3 times over 16 long years?

Anyway, the indulgence in the Diva cakes with Kenneth, was more memorable than the movie. Chatted with Kenneth like there's no ending to our stories. But it is indeed that I can talk to him about anything under the sun and share with him with what I thought about something that we never share with anybody else. Looking forward to my next outing with him and my other Brooksians! As for my Innovians friends, hmmm only my band friends are in contact albeit not all. Hmmm, my primary school friends, we'll meet again during Hari Raya ok?

2008-03-24T14:13:00.011+08:00

**************************************not suitable for Siti Nurhaliza haters**************************************

Assalamualaikum. OOOOOOh amazing! Alhamdulillah, I am so thankful that I went for her concert at the Espalanade. I wish I had bought a more espensive ticket but it is ok, I can still see and listen to her clearly from where I sat. She premiered the concert in a different manner this time round; with an upbeat song which is Lagu Rindu and Nirmala followed by Siti Situ Sana Sini. Her showmanship got lot better this time round. Maybe her 13 years of her experience engender this. The concert continued with Mulanya Cinta which is composed by Singapore's Dick Lee who is also the composer of my school song(which I never remember how it sounds like).

Then, my favourite moment took place, she sang an English song by Beyonce Knowles. A very meaningful song. "I don't why you love me... And that's why I love you.. You catch me when I fall... Accept me flaws and all..." I love the song so much and I thought her live version was better than Beyonce's live performance but I love both. Datin Seri Siti's voice was so soothing that day. Hahaha, she is one conservative singer indeed. She changed a part of the lyrics, instead of I'm a bitch in the afternoon, she changed to I'm a pain in the afternoon. Then she sang another song from Indonesia, Wulan Merindu. Enjoyed this song... "Bawalah diriku sayang, ku ingin selalu bersamamu..." . Sutramaya came next. Finally I know what is the meaning of sutramaya. It means aura.Very powerful rocky song! And then she went back stage to change.

A very nice black green busana, she called it Ahmad Albab's clothes. Hehehehe. She started the second segment of the concert with her latest song Cintamu. Continued with another Enlish Song, Love You Inside and Out by BeeGees. She told a story and sand Biarlah Rahsia, a very moving song. She kept us moving with her next song, Destinasi Cinta the acoustic version. Then, it was the sad part. Siti introduced one of her fans, who is actually BLIND. Imagine people, many of us start hating her when she put on weight, but this lady! She sincerely loves Siti because of none other than her talent! Talent! I am really moved. Someone who is blind can appreciate someone like Siti, that tells a lot about her voice! I do not understand the society, they hate Siti because she married Datuk Seri Khalid, they hate Siti because she is fatter now, they hate Siti because Siti is covering her hair! Whatever! I STILL LOVE HER! I admire her strong stand, after 13 years of stardom, she never act DIVA-ish once when she should after making the Malay society proud. The first Malay Singer to make a concert at the prestigious Royal Albert Hall, the first Malay Singer to sing at the Golden Horse Awards, the first Malay Singer to sing with a Hollywood Singer, the first Malay Singer who got the title Dato' at such a young age. Even Anita Sarawak whom we declared a Diva never achieved all this! Despte all these great achievements, she is still so down-to-earth and humble. I admire her, I like her, I RESPECT her! Anyway, she wanted to go down to Kak Zarina, her fan who is blind but there was no stairs down the stage so she said something like "Alamak, macam mana eh nak turun. Nanti jadi batman karang..." Batman! Hahaha, she said this because she was wearing a "mega-butterfly" top! Something like a batman "veil". She moved us with Rafeah Buang's Bisikan Hati. She then made tribute to Singapore born singer who is now a big superstar in Malaysia, M. Nasir. She sang the M. Nasir's medley. Made us dance and groove with her Royal Albert Hall's version of Cindai! The she slowed down with Melawan Kesepian. Ended the concert with Ku Mahu!

The concert was a dream come true for me. After 13 years of idolising her, this is my first time making an apperance at her concert. I have my own reason for that. It was superb, and Esplande's theatre hall is great! The sound system and the lighting just set the mood right for Asia's Celine Dion(well not acclaimed by me but by London's papers) concert!

2008-03-14T19:22:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Went shopping with Nasri yesterday. Isetan Scotts had a private sale yesterday. Thanks to Nasri to invite me to this private sale. Initially, I thought it was only a department that is having a sale, but to my surprise, it was the whole building of Isetan scotts having sale! OOoh great but didn't buy anything eventually. From 10 a.m to 3 p.m we shop in Isetan with a lunch break at Ayam Bakar Ojolali at Lucky Plaza. Then we went all the way to Tampines to have a haircut! We had our first haircut together at KiMage Hair Studio. PM Adrian recommeded us to that place. Nice haircut but with gel, wax or clay! Anyway, I gtg people... Off to Malacca!

2008-03-08T12:31:00.006+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Haizzz. I just do not understand some people. Never encountered this kind of people before. Seriously, I think the politics at work are driving me more crazy and it is indeed more stressful than to study for my 'A' levels. Their attitude and the way they work things out irk me a lot. One is a sweet talker and a big, big, big idiot. After what he had done to you, you still goes to him and be his pet? He is no one and not even your superior and I must say that he is controlling you. After giving you attitude and doing something childish to you, you still want to be predominated by him. You keep saying that I am forgetting you and he can also said that I forget about you already. Bull shit! You think I want to be like you is it? After what you have done to me, you think I still want to suck up to you? Hey, you are no one! I still remember back then when people ignore and talk bad about you, talking about how childish and how idiotic you are, now I think that what they said about you are nothing but the truth! Now, I can see how you guys are playing the "game" and to my surprise, not only me who realises it but other people and even some of the pms know about the game you guys are playing. God is fair guys, life is nothing but a wheel, one day you are at the peak and on another day, you will be at its nadir. Face it! Play the game like a MAN!

Anyway, I would like to congratulate my 3 dearest juniors, Nadiah, Syaza and Fizah for doing well for your 'A' levels. Proud of you guys! Muah!!!

I will be going to Datin Seri Hajjah Siti Nurhaliza's concert at the Esplanade. Can't wait for it! 13 more days! February 2008 had been a bad month for me. With her concert, with my new clique, with my short trip to Malacca to visit my relatives there, I hope things will be better for me in March and onwards...

2008-02-24T22:09:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Dato' Siti's coming to town... Dato' Siti's coming to town(in the tune of Santa Claus is coming to town) Hehehhe... Lame, but who cares! I am very, and defintely happy that Datin Seri Siti Nurhaliza is coming to Singapore and making it better, the venue of her concert is the Esplanade. Wah! I love this place, many beautiful memories there. Anyway, I will be going for this one, not going to miss this golden opportunity!

Anyway, finally managed to watch 27 Dresses! According to Munirah, it is a feel-good movie! Oh I need that, so I decided to watch it. The funny thing is that I watch it with a guy. He whispered to me, "Hey Izwan, gosh! All of them in the theatres are couples! Gosh!!!" Hahhaa, I replied "Ooops there's no turning back!" He watched it cause he loves Katherine Heigl and I watch it because I am desperate for something that will make me feel good. Indeed, it wasnt a disappointment. It is really a feel-good movie! Wah, I need that so much! It was a great movie, lot of lessons learnt. Katherine Heigl is so cute and inspirational at some points.

2008-02-19T11:12:00.007+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Just finish reading the book "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom. Very inspirational, I must say. Touching too and it makes me treasure and appreciate that one lady more who is none other than my Mother. It is a book that I recommend to all because, Mother is word that can never be erased from anyone's life. One part of the book that will always remain in my mind will be this:

"Ask yourself this: Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted just one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back."
Mitch Albom, For One More Day

Hate to say this but I cannot deny that I have been wasting a lot of time. Time that I can use to do so many other meaningful things. Guys, blogging is one meaningful thing too, at least for me. I hope I had use the time in a more desirable manner. Anyway, there's no use in looking back. Now look forward Izwan... Straight ahead. Now planning for the future. Roughly I got the picture but the subject that I am going to choose is still beclouded. I went to NUS website to find out more about the Maths course under Science Faculty. Gosh, I do not like the modules, seriously. Maths and literally Maths. Maths in Engineering, Maths in Computer Science, Maths the modern world and bla bla bla. Malay Studies' modules seem nice. Peeps, u may see me in the faculty of Arts and Social Science in August 2009. It is still a "may".

Last two weeks, went to have breakfast with my dear Brooksians. Ismail, Kenneth, Saddiqi, Saddiqi, Melvin and I had breakfast at Delifrance. First time, having breakfast together after 7 years of friendship. Then head over to Grace's place for CNY visitting. Met Grace and Mum, Kelly and brother, Siew Feng there. Nice reunion! And goodbye Kelly who already left for Australia.

Last week, managed to catch up with my Innovian band members. Sent Jace and Monisha off. Jacelyn going to Tasmania, Monisha to the !ncredible India. Hehehhehehe. Met Ismail, Maslyn, Fazlan and Nabil. It is nice to see some other Innovians whom I do not even know that they were in the same school as me untill that fine day. Thank you for knowing me and sorry for for not recognising you people! Hehehehehehe. Bought chocolates and nougats from Candy Empire and the Cocoa Tree shop. Spent my Valentine's eating chocolate and tuition!

I do not know why so many people leaving for Australia... Jacelyn, Yong Ting, Jennifer, Kelly and soon leaving, Nabil and my dear medic pal, Rifai.

And ya Syaza, I would love to meet you girls as soon as possible! It might be my next reunion!

2008-02-14T17:27:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I do not know why must it turn out this way. Is it that I am expecting too much from them? Arghhhh! If so, then why can you expect so much from me?

2008-01-28T11:30:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Sorry for the absence guys. Gosh! I ahve to make a personal apology to both my dearest band members and my cgmates. I am so sorry guys! I cannot join you guys for the upcoming gatherings. Not that I do not want to but I can't. NS and all. Wish I could have more personal time for myself. Gosh, miss the days when I will go to the library or that MacDonalds to study alone while listening to Siti Nurhaliza on my earpiece and wah, that is simply pleasurable! Actually, now I think that sudying is not a bad thing actually! Pretty cool!

Anyway, received another letter from NUS. It is regarding the application for change of course in 2008. Currently, I am reserved with a place in Civil Engineering, NUS and that course will take me 4 years to complete. By that time, I will be hmm...25? 26? Wah... No wonder, Singaporeans are getting married at a later age nowadays. Anyway, back to the topic. Before yesterday, I was actually still not sure if I should still stay in the faculty where a place has already been reserved for me or apply again to change the course that I am offered with. But I think things are getting clearer today. Yesterday, I attended a hang case at one construction site. The thing that I focussed on was not the dead body or the tongue that is sticking out but the construction site. Gosh! I cannot imagine myself working in that kind of place! No, no, no! My decision is up, I will apply for a change of course. To what course, I am still deciding! Haiz, got another decision to make now!

2008-01-13T12:41:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Had a great day yesterday. It was Paya Lebar Fire Station's Family Day and had lots of fun with the Paramedics, Drivers, Firefighters as well with my fellow medics. It is rare that medics from various rotas meet together and yesterday, it happened when Rota 1, 3 and 4 medics celebrate Station 21 Family Day. The lucky draw session was the most happening. Encik Norizan never fail to make people laugh. Hahahaha, I respect this man. Had lots of food yesterday. Satay, rice, noodles, fish, chickens, cream puffs, puddings, cakes, fruits and best of all, the eclairs. I thought I wasn't going to enjoy it as much, as I was working the night before that. Straight after my duty was the Family Day. Tiring though but everyone make it a "happening" one!

Straight after the Family Day at 12.00p.m, headed home and reached home at around 1.15 p.m. Clean up and got ready to go out again with my dear Brooksians friends. Kenneth, Ismail, Cassandra and Joel. Had a KBOX session at Cineleisure. The last time I went to this place was with Ismail and Bashirah to watch Cicakman and people, that was before my enlistment. Anyway, had lost of fun during the KBOX session. We sang When You Believe, Say It Isnt So, Beautiful, Back at One, Listen, A New Day Has Come, GEMILANG, Unbreak My Heart, Inside Your Heaven, Mama Mia, Bohemian Rhapsody, Only Human OST One Litre of Tears and bla bla bla. One song that caught my attention was Bubbly by Colby Calliat. Nice song, very bouncy and "sway". After that we went to have dinner at Lucky Plaza, Ayam Penyet Ria. The Es Chendol is pretty different from the local ones and also the Ayam Penyet is nice apart from the ultra-spicy Sambal. Took the MRT and took one whole round of bus 812 home with Kenneth. We continue to chat till 12.00a.m. Wha lots of catching up done. Lots of secrets revealed too! Hehehhe... Looking forward to another session of this whole thing! Photos are one the way. Now, am very tired... 36 hours without sleep!

Thank you so much to the four of them for such a great outing yesterday and special thank you to Ismail, Monisha, Bashirah, Maslyn and Fazlan for the birthday present from Domanchi. Love it so much!

Oh ya! Had a few coincidence yesterday. Farhana, Eileen and Haoren. I last met Farhana during the 'O' levels results released which was 3 years ago, Eileen during my last band practice which was 4 years ago and Haoren was during the release of 'A' level results and that is a year ago.

Anyway, she is getting prettier!

2008-01-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

Salam Maal 1429 Hijrah!

2008-01-08T11:14:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Hi Guys! Works officially stacked up last week. My brain has been working again, remebering all the theories and formulae. Hahahaha... Thought that NS will be a goodd break for all that but I am glad that it wasn't. I think if that happens, my brain will be rusty by the time I enrol in the university in 2009. Stack of books greet me on evevry off days of mine. Well, that's great I think!

Anyway, many people are speculating about Datin Seri Siti Nurhaliza's latest image after performing her pilgrimage last month. Well here it is! Tadaaa! I am happy that there are indeed changes in her image. I am glad and proud of her. At the age of 29, she is already thinking about covering up unlike some other OLD hack stars who are, well not covering up but rather opening up. Shameful man!

2008-01-04T07:38:00.000+08:00

in malay
Assalamualaikum. Alhamdulillah sudah 20 tahun jantung ini berdenyut. Entah berapa saat, detik, minit, jam, bulan, tahun, dekad lagikah ia akan terus berdegup. Saya berserah dan hanya mampu bersiap sedia untuk bertemu dengan saat terakhir jantung ini bermaya. Takut, memang benar menakutkan, tapi kadang-kadang saya terlupa. Ishh, bagaimana untuk terus sedar akan betapa dekatnya saya dengan hari Perhitungan?

Pernah seorang teman memberitahu saya bahawa dia benci diingatkan hari lahirnya kerana suatu kenyataan Rasulullah saw. Baginda pernah bersabda bahawa beliau juga tidak suka diingatkan akan Hari Lahirnya kerana ia mengingatkan betapa pedih dan sakitnya ibunya melahirkannya. Benar, tetapi saya tidak membencinya samasekali bahkan ia mengingatkan saya untuk lebih berjasa kepada ibu saya yang menanggung kesakitan melahirkan saya dan akan terus berusaha untuk membuat ibu saya bersyukur kerana telah melahirkan saya dan akan tiada segamit pun penyesalan yang dirasakan. InsyaAllah.

Apa pun, saya bersyukur kerana terus diberi hidayah dan peluang untuk terus bertaubat kepadanya.

Gersang Bumi Tanpa Hujan, Gersang Minda Tanpa Ilmu,
Gersang Hati Tanpa Iman, Gersang Jiwa Tanpa Amal.

in english
Hey people. Thank you so much for the wishes and presents. Thank you so much to those who stayed up to wish me at around 12.00 a.m So sweet of you guys. Thank you so much. I am no longer a teenager.Now, an adult. Will change, change for the better I hope. Just wait and see.

2008-01-01T16:08:00.000+08:00

in malay

Assalamualaikum. Salam sejahtera dan Selamat tahun baru, 2008! Sebuah lembaran baru telah terbuka tirainya. Penuh visi, resolusi dan impian untuk direalisasi. Apa pun, kita tidak patut lupa mahupun tinggalkan kenangan tahun 2007 bertempiaran di awangan kesepian tidak berhaluan. Perlu dipetik, diracik, ditarik segala pelajaran mahupun pengetahun yang berbuah sepanjang tahun lalu. Memang sudah menjadi suatu 'cliche' apabila seseorang mengatakan bahawa kita perlu lupakan yang sudah berlalu. Namun, perlu kita amati yang setiap kejadian, petunjuk yang diberikan bukanlah suatu lakonan arahan Tuhan semata, bahkan ianya adalah penggerak hebat buat kita mengorak langkah yang seterusnya.

Hari demi hari berlalu, fantasi duniawi membuat kita lupa yang hari Penentuan semakin tiba memanggil kita. Saya juga tidak terkecuali. Namun, saya sesal, kesal yang teramat apabila melihat kembali sepanjang tahun yang sudah. Kosong, tanpa erti. Perkhidmatan negara telah membuat saya lalai. Ketiadaan masa untuk berterima kasih kepadaNya telah membuat saya lalai, terus dibuai dodoian Syaitan. Sesungguhnya dapat diputarkan masa, ingin saya sedarkan setiap kealpaan dan memekakkan telinga dari setiap bisikan si pemusnah anak Adam. Namun, ianya diluar kekuatan, kebolehan, kemampuan saya.

Saya kini bersyukur kerana diberi peluang oleh Dia untuk melayari kehidupan di dunia ini buat yang ke-20 tahun. Telah dua dekad saya di dunia ini, tetapi apa yang telah saya lakukan untuk menunjukkan rasa syukur kepada Dia, sang Pencipta? Saya kesal. Ini bukan suatu ratapan, tetapi suatu penyesalan. Ingin saya perbetulkan mana yang salah, perluruskan mana yang tidak berarah, perhaluskan mana yang hambar serta peringatkan mana yang lupa.

Orang kata, "How you start your new year is how you going to spend the rest of the year!" Entah benar entah tidak tapi mengapa tidak kita mulakannya dengan cara yang baik. Let start it right, people. Telah banyak nikmat yang saya kecapi tapi semakin banyak saya perolehi, semakin tenggelam saya dalam lembah yang menjahanamkan. Wahai teman, jadilah cermin yang benar bagiku. Tegur dan peringatkanlah diriku ini agar tidak semakin jauh aku sesat dalam kegelutan dunia yang hanya membinasakan. Marilah kita saling mengingatkan satu sama lain.

2007-12-24T12:18:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Had a pretty long break but sadly, I am called back again tonight. Haiz... When will this end? March 2009 huh? For once, I wish the clock to tick quicker, faster. Anyway, went to my secondry school friends Christmas Chalet! Gosh, it is great to see all of them there. Kenneth (the mastermind), Ismail, Saddiqi, Saddiq, Melvin, Kok Leong, Derrick, Joel, Cassandra, Kelly, Alaina, Siew Feng, Grace, Xiu Jin, Gek Peng and Xin Hui! Thank you so much for making my day. Had a chat session with Kenneth and the twins. It has been months since we chat. Wah, great catch up. The food was yummy and the fondue was just superb!!! Guys, thanks for the presents. Sorry that I brought and unwrapped present and no cards for you guys. Thank you Kelly for the gift from Australia, Kenneth for the useful present, and for the cards, thank you Kenneth, Melvin, Gek Peng and Xin Hui. I feel bad though but it was a bit too rush for me. Had so many things to do this break, and furthermore Hari Raya Haji just passed. This year won't be able to celebrate Christmas due to working, but it is ok, I'll save lives. Hehehehe...

Anyway, 05S71 outing was cancelled yesterday and so I decided to go out with my parents to IKEA. Went there to look around and after that went to Queensway Shopping Centre. Met Fitria and Munirah there! Hello Girls! Too many people there but I still managed to get myself a pair of shoes frm KAPPA. First time trying KAPPA Shoes and hopefully it will be a good start, next one hopefully will be my beloved ADIDAS shoes. Hehehhehe... Tops done, shoes done and now the pants search! Oh ya, thought of Izwan's latest fashion mood!

After that, headed back to Chong Pang! Finally got one of my most favourite DVD, TROY and Kingdom of Heaven! Gosh, it is one with the Director's Cut. Not much difference actually but I am glad that I bought teh DVD. Great movie. Still have yet to watch Kindgom of Heaven, but heard that it is a good movie. Hope so. Now, back to work!

2007-12-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I want to share this beautiful song to all! Enjoy the latest song by my idol!

Melawan Kesepian, Hadiah Daripada Hati
Datin Seri Siti Nurhaliza, Pongky Jikustik
*recommended to listen to this song in a dark peaceful room

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Airmata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan

Nanti kitakan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pelajaran yang bererti

Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampuku lawan
Kesepianku...

Direct translation...

No matter what happen
Continue the journey
Holding back the tears
On the verge of crying

We will know someday
How beautiful life is
No matter how hard it seems
It will be our best guidance

Hopefully, your absence
Will not change anything
Hopefully, I will be able
To battle this loneliness

2007-12-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I would like to take this opportunity to wish all Muslimin and Muslimat, A Happy Hari Raya AidilAdha.

Kita menyambut hari untuk mempergingati pengorbanan yang dilakukan oleh Nabi Ibrahim a.s dan puteranya Nabi Ismail a.s. Pengorbanan nyawa demi Allah swt dilaksanakan dengan tanpa pertanyaan, kesangsian mahupun penyesalan kerana mereka tahu, Dia Maha mengetahui dan segala sesuatu yang diutuskanNya pasti ada rahmat dan keberkahannya tersendiri. Amin.

Bilalah agaknya diriku yang hina ini dijemput untuk menjadi tetamu Allah di Mekah Al-Mukarramah kelak? Ya Allah, ku menanti seruMu!

2007-12-16T00:35:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Just done watching Asian Idol. Gosh! I love the second performance by Malaysia's Jaclyn Victor. I thought it was international! She reached the highest note among the other contestant. I think the strongest voice goes to Mau, most flexible voice goes to Jac, sweetest voice goes to Mike and the Indian Idol got the nicest voice. Singapore's and Vietnam's Idol are the most commercial pair. Cannot wait for the results tonight!

Anyway, went to Geylang Serai just now to get Datin Seri Siti Nurhaliza's latest album. It was superb and worth the journey and money! So many new things done by her. Changes and more changes. I love all the songs in this album. Ok, shall not talk lots about her, she must be having her most peaceful moment in front of the Kaabah now.

Let's get serious now. Dear beloved friends of mine who still remember and appreciate me, thank you for wanting to go out with me but I am so sorry that I turned down the offer. All of them. It is not that I forget about you guys or no longer treasure our friendship but I just do not have the time. Sometimes, I do not even have time for myself, what more my family. I have been getting less than 12 hours of off-duty hours nowadays out of the 48 hours I am entitled to. I really appreciate and touched by the offer to be still in touch and the thoughts of keeping the relationship going strong. To my medic friends too, I know that I have been turning down ALL your offer to go out together but I do have other commitments too. I will try to make up for it some other day.

Aku lelah untuk terluka,
Saat semua mata memandangku nista
Hilang arah diriku disini
Tanpa Kalian, Hadiah Daripada Hati
Datin Seri Siti Nurhaliza, Taufik

*presenting Aisy's favourite song! Aspalela

2007-12-12T21:21:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Finally I got myself a new and the latest fragrance from Hugo Boss, HUGO XY. Interesting way of differentiating the one for female and male. Usually, it is like HUGO for Male and otherwise but this one is interesting, do you know how are you determined scientifically to be a boy or a girl when an egg is fertilized by the sperm? It is by the chromosome XY or XX. If it is XX, the baby is going to be a female one and if XY, it will be a baby boy. Hey, I am once a Pure Biology student too. Hehehehe...

Anyway, got a new haircut too. Feel so light on the head now. Is it true that people who have wavy and curly hair are short-tempered? The hairstylist asked me if I am one, and I answered, "Errrr... I do not think so" Do you think I am one, people?

Hope the new look and fragrance will lift my spirit as it has been down-down for the past week. I've been called back twice, 2 standbys back-to-back. Gosh! I worked 4 days straight and I hope I will be okay! Arghhh, think about this irks me a lot! Got a warning when phlegm starts to clog my throat and I can feel the heat under my skin, drank a lot of Apple Juice yesterday to boost my immunity with the Vitamin C content. Have been drinking a lot of water and hopefully I will be fine soon. Hate Rota 2 and 3! Well, not all of them but most!

Another wish, I hope I can get hold of Datin Seri Siti Nurhaliza's latest album by the end of this week. Oh please ship the albums over to Singapore as soon as possible! Another interesting thing, this album is a collaboration of Malaysia, Indonesia and Singapore's great composers. Singapore's Dick Lee composed a song for Datin Seri for her latest album in conjunction of the musical Remy... P. Ramlee. Shall see how great is he! Can't wait to hear songs like Sutramaya, Wanita, Melawan Kesepian and Mulanya Cinta by Dick Lee!

2007-12-11T16:09:00.000+08:00

Lembaran yang bakalku akhiri
Kisah semalam menjadi penyedar diri
Disulam agar terlahirnya satu memori
Andai bisa dijulang kanan dan kiri
Pasti tidak mungkin akanku mungkiri
Segalanya diuji hati-hati dengan indahnya terpatri
Menjadi suatu identiti yang akan membuat diri sendiri tergari ...

izwan

2007-12-08T10:39:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I am still furious. Yesterday was supposedly my off day and I got called back because an idiot took MC. Heard that he has been playing MC and all. He evr told me that he is already sick and tired of being a Medic and want to change vocation. Well, I think he is just so stupid. This is NS, do you think you have a choice? Anyway, in the first place, if you do not like the vocation, why do study for the tests and pass them all to pass out as a Medic? Stupid right? Yesterday was also my parent's 31st Wedding Anniversary and I already prepared something to celebrate it at night since my dad will only be back home at 7 p.m. And at 5.30 p.m, I got called back. So stupid!

Now, I know the importance of focus when you are a Medic. My mind was pretty off, maybe due to the anger and the thoughts of the screwed up plan for my parent's anniversary. Went for a case at a bowling alley. Case of unable to walk. As you guys know how slippery bowling alley is, I wasn't careful enough and lost balance and to look professional I quickly landed on my hand and unfortunately, the part of my hand that landed first was my thumb nail. Gosh, it was so painful. At first I thought, it was nothing, just a reflex action. A few minutes later, I realise that blood was already pooling in my glove. Shit! The funny thing was the patient got so scared when he saw the blood. He even asked my paramedic to attend to me first instead of him as he thought my condition as more serious since I was bleeding. He kept apologising and asking me if I was okay. Haiz... One of my sweet patients! When I reached the hospital and opened my gloves, the crowd at the A&E Dept was looking at me. After washing my hands and got rid of the blood, I checked my thumbnail. Gosh, It was partially detached. Urrgghhh! Luckily it was my left thumb which is less-frequently used. Yesterday was REALLY a bad day!

Anyway, this is my all-time-favourite song "Bukan Cinta Biasa" and would like to dedicate this song to my parents whose love for one another are still going strong at the 31st year, and all the loving couples out there!

2007-12-03T19:12:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Went to Panasonic building to redeem my voucher in the afternoon and after that went to Queensway Shopping Centre. Seriously, I have never been there. I know that the place is pretty popular among youngsters but sorry, I am part of the minority who is not with it. Pretty impressive, lots of shoes and recreational sporty stuffs. To a large extent, it resembles Far East Plaza. I love the shoes there. So many to choose from. Better designs than those I saw at Far East. Will go there again to get a pair of shoes... Set my heart on two shoes, a Kappa and Adidas shoes.

Clean my wardrobe just now and realised that I have many tops that I have not wear before. 2 from Esprit, 2 from TOPMAN, 2 from G2000 and 1 that I bought in Langkawi. Guess I have to stop shopping for tops and shall concentrate on jeans, berms and shoes hunting. Hmm have to redo my shopping list. Anyway, it is Christmas people. The shopping season is here!

Bumped into Mrs. Lim just now. I am so envious of her. She still recognise and remember my name after all these years. She taught me once, in Primary 2 Arts class. She amazed me in many ways. Her poise, elegance in simple means, as well as her strong personality. She even remember the fact that I was one of the players in the Scrooge Musical at the Jubilee Hall, Raffles Hotel when I was in primary 6 and asked me to catch the ongoing Scrooge - The Musical by the Singapore Repertory Theatres at the DBS Arts Centre. Also, she asked me to continue pursuing in this field- the theatres. She advised me to continue being active in acting and musical. "Izwan, you really should pursue this since you have the flare for it. Not all people have what you have and what you can do..." she said. Well, this statement really arouse the theatrical side of me to start being active again in the theatres. Hmmm, I will wait and most probably I will do this when I am in NUS, insyaAllah. NUS arts scene is pretty active, so I think I will pursue it there.

Anyway, one thing that is making me excited is Datin Seri Siti Nurhaliza's latest album- Hadiah Dari Hati (A Gift from the Heart) She will be going to Mecca to perform her pilgrimage and also if you realise the album's cover, she never show her hair. Media has been saying that this might be one clue to wether she is going to wear tudung (scarf) once she comes back from Mecca.

2007-11-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Had 6 days break! But it was a disastrous one. I do not think if it fits to be seen as a "break". Tiring man. I am so looking forward to another break, hopefully, let it be a peaceful one. I just got a message that I have to take my IPPT on the 29th November 2007 morning. Shit! I will be working on the 28th and I am sure I will be darn tired to run my 2.4 km and do my pull-ups. Gosh! And the worst thing is that I have not been running for such a long time. Let's see if I can pass!

I am left with tomorrow to train for it as I will be working on Tuesday and Wednesday. So last minute... That is so ****( dude, it is not bad word!)

Gosh, let me think what should I do for the next leave? Shopping? Movies? Dating? Hahhahaha... Let it be a secret... Biarlah Rahsia.

2007-11-21T11:38:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. It had been a week and a half since I had my 2 blocks leave and now I am having another block leave. I was asked to clear my leave and for now, I am just waiting for the December roster. There are a lot of plans that will be held in December but I still have not given my friends the final say if I am joining them or not. I hate this! A roster that determines my life. Isn't that irritating. Have been chatting with some of the paramedics lately, some of their comment was, "Izwan, you are being too nice... Izwan, you need to be more outspoken... Izwan, you must be more relax" Gosh!

For the first comment, I never take it as a turning point or a thing that I must change. This is not the first time I've heard that sort of comment given to me but I am taking it in stride. I am not going to change it. I believe it is not sinful to be too nice! Even though at times, people will step on our heads when we are too nice but I think that it is fine with me. Step my head for all you can as long at my integrity, my pride, my family's pride are not at stake. I also belive that "YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE". What Goes Around Comes Around right pal?

For the second comment. I know what they meant. They want me to be more mat, call out more bad words and goes to clubs and pubs with them. Well, that is something I am not going to do and be. I am not going to change for those people. In that circle, I felt out because I had 'A' levels and none of them had. And the problem is that these people think that I look down on them and because of that I sense a certain degree of hostility towards me. Well, I regret this. To be frank, I have never have a thought like that and furthermore I respect them so much, all as elderly. Even the one who is younger than me. Anyway, I do not want to change that manner, certainly no to this but yes to a more mature and sensible man. Furthermore, why must I change for them, I am not going to be in the circle for long. After these 2 years, I am off! In the university, I believe that I will mee better people but certainly there are bad people there as well, at least this kind of problems will not rise.

Anyway, had a few interesting cases after I came back from the long leave. I had my first collapse case(the most emergency case). Collapse is when someone has stop breathing and has no more pulse. What we will do is do CPR and attached the AED pads on them to shock them so that we might be able to revive them. There are super many things that we have to do and imagine how tired are we when we have to do one man CPR from scene all the way to the hospital! Just my luck, I had my first collapse when there is an auditor with me. Gosh! Dup...dap...dup...dap. But thankfully after the whole thing, the auditor did praise me. Thank goodness! Alhamdulillah. Another one was, on Friday. It was my first time going home early. We end our duty around 9 p.m. Usually, I will leave the station, the earliest will be 9.15 p.m. But on that day I decided to leave early to buy my dinner. I left at 8.50 p.m. On my way home I witnessed an accident. Was terrified but I do not know where I got my guards from, I ran as fast as I could to the casualty. To my surprise, it was my own platoonmate. Gosh, asked someone to call the ambulance while I handle the casualty. Moved him to the side of the road and checked on him while waiting for the ambulance. A few minutes later, an ambulance came and it was from my station. Helped them to immobilise his leg and load him up into the ambulance. Wah, so glad that I can be of some use.

Changed the song on my blog again. This is one of the most soothing song I have heard before. It is the OST of the movie Kayangan. Ballroom themed and well suited with Datin Seri Nurhaliza's beautiful voice. Hehehe.

2007-11-10T19:35:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Last Wednesday marked my last Hari Raya visiting for the year 2007. Bashirah, Fitria, Siti and I went to Cikgu Ali's place. Again, to one house only. We reached his house at 8.25p.m and left at 11.55 p.m. Had a long chat with him and of course great laughs! ML 'A', a history that I shall never forget. Being someone who used to be in love with Malay so much, I was actually thrilled when I was given ML 'A' as one of my subject for my A levels. Imagine, when I was in primary school, even I scored A for my Malay Language, my Malay teacher in primary school never give me a chance to even hop in for one of her Higher Malay class. Never mind. Later in secondary school, can't blame my Malay teacher because no Higer Malay was offered in Northbrooks Secondary School. So when I made it to JC, I never want to miss the chance of learning this favourite subject of mine with greater depth. In the course of doing so, I also met a few Malay teachers that really widen my view scope regarding certain things that are "Malay-borne" like its people, culture, language and religion. Gosh I miss Innova JC like haven. Maybe no the school, but some of the friends, teachers and of course the life there. To my juniors, please use the time in JC wisely and do take photos and write a diary of your daily JC experience as I regret for not doing it.

Anyway, now I am still in a state of confusion. I do not know what I like exactly. Malay Studies ya, but how far will it take me? Civil Engineering, I must say that I do like Physics but I think the teachers made me hate it... Oh not Mr. Jimmy Teo but my secondary school Physics teacher. Gosh, hate him. Maybe the Physics lecturer in NUS will make me love it like the way Miss Ng makes me love C Maths. I hope I will be able to make a final decision by the last day of University Application next year.

Haizzz. Back to the ambulance tomorrow. Will be working after my 10 days break. Do not really like this break. It is too long I guess and I have no plan to fill it. WOnder who will be my paramedic for tomorrow and what kind of cases will I attend to!

2007-11-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. It is nearing to the end of Syawal. Gosh! So fast... Never, the faster the better and this means my ORD date is getting nearer. Hahahaha. 493 Days to the day of FREEDOM! Anyway, since Syawal is drawing to its end soon, I shall stop playing Hari Raya Songs. Since Deepavali is coming, I shall play this song by Udit Narayan and Lata Mageshkar. I am sure this song will not fail to move your body! A bit cheesy I know, but just for this Deepavali period!

I have been taking quite a number of photos this week. I realise that I have red eyes in almost all the pictures taken with my camera and if the problem lies with the camera, why does my friends who are also in the picture do not have red eyes. Gosh, I think the problem lies with my eyes. Oh and if you are thinking that I am lying because all the pictures that feature me in it in this blog do not show me having red eye, this is because I have already editted the eye.

Apart from the red eye, I find there is another problem with me. Un-fat-able! Why is it so hard for me to get fat or at least look lean. The more I try to eat more than I usually do, the more people said that I look thinner. Oh crap! I miss the chubby me when I was in primary school. Strange, I was fatter in the past but I could run better then than presently when I am thin. Ironic huh? Thinner -> Lighter -> Able to run faster? Is that a mismatch? Doesn't it work this way? I need to get fitter. Told Fitria, Munirah and Siti that I wish I had a body like Rain! A voice like Anuar Zain's. A face like, well I am contented with my looks. Alhamdulillah.

Another thing, don't I look like a Singaporean? I realise that when strangers approach me to ask something or do a survey, the very first question they ask me is, "Are you a Singaporean?"

Anyway, now Siti Nurhaliza is no longer a Datuk. Used to call her Datin but a year after her marriage she got herself a Datuk and now, a year later, she is called Datin Seri Siti Nurhaliza. Gosh! I wonder what will she be called next year!

2007-11-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Had a great day today. Love it, love it, love it. Apart from the food, I got to get back and update myself with news from my fellow friends from the ML 'A' class in Innova Junior College. Oh not only friends but also from the teachers. Wah! Had a great time reminiscing when we talked about the memories in IJC. Malay 'A'... A History That I Will Never Forget.

Yesterday went to on Mdm Hani's place but today we went to a lot of houses. First was Siti's place, then Ismail's, mine, followed by Mr. Azahar's, Fitria's, Rafidah and last but not least was Mdm Suhana's. From Siti's place in Boon Lay, we took an SMRT's MPV taxi to Ismail's in Yishun. Then it was bus, bus, bus and bus. After Rafidah, we called for the same SMRT's MPV taxi to fetch us to Mdm Suhana's place.

Let me see if I remember all the food served yesterday and today. Mdm Hani served us Spaghetti, Chicken Curry, Beef Curry, Tauhu Sumbat and Fried Chicken.Today, at Siti's place, it was Fried BeeHoon and Chicken Curry with Bread. Ismail served tasty Nasi Briyani "accompanied" with lots of other dishes like Acha Timun, Beef Rendang, Sambal Prawn, Chicken Masak Merah, Sweet and Sour Fish and Dalca. At Mr. Azahar's house was Nasi Lemak with other side dishes like Sambal Prawn, Fried Chicken, Nuggets, Fishballs, Eggs, and etc. At Fitria's house, it was BBQ Mee. Hahaha. It was actually Fried BeeHoon but she called it so because it was usually served during barbeque sessions. Over to Rafidah's place, we are served with Brownies. Gosh I love this! Then lastly, we were served with Satay, Fried Rice, BBQ Chicken and other stuffs that I did not take notice since I was already super full, at Mdm Suhana's beautiful house.

After that we went to hangout at MacDonalds. We had Milkshakes! Gosh! Love this too! I had Vanilla! The best to me. We talked, bitched, gosipped, and confessed! Hahahaha, but we never hina people, we were just stating facts...Not mengumpat-ing. Then I met Syaza. Oh gosh! I miss this girl and the other 2 like crazy. Miss those fun debating times. Oh ya, Mdm Hani wants me to mentor next year IJC Debate team. oh well, I wil try my best again...

2007-11-02T15:56:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Met Saddiqi at the mosque just now. It has been quite a long time since I met him. The last time was before the fasting month. Had a nice chat with him as usual. After they prayers, we went to the coffeeshop nearby to have our lunch. I ate Nasi Lemak and Saddiqi had Rojak Mama. After that, we went to a pet shop, Saddiqi need to buy some feeder-fish and terrapin food. I told him of my idea of having a mini bowl-tank with some guppies in it. Aren't they soothing to the eye? Seeing them swim among the plants engender serenity! And Saddiqi taught me how to do it, that's what friends are for. I have Saddiq who knows about plants and food nutrition, Kenneth who knows about good food, Ismail who knows fashion, Saddiqi who knows about keeping pets, and they know me who knows about Datuk Siti Nurhaliza. I am the useless one I guess, hahahaha. Oh ya, I know how to save people! Not so bad.

Anyway, heard a few of Waheeda's and Suhaimi's songs yesterday. Wah, I am mesmerized their songs and soothing voices. Oklah, cannot beat Datuk Siti's voice but still, their voices are special. There are no Western singers who sings like them. I salute them man, more and more singers are trying to sing like Whitney Houston, Mariah Carey, Marc Anthony and Celine Dion but they are still standing strong in their own stand in having their own stream of songs and no copycats like other singers in Malaysia. Currently listening to Aku...Ana, Sindiran, Di Penjara Zaman, Seteguh Cinta, Pesona Zulaikha, Manusia Lupa and Zapin Zikir. Nice songs... Now, patiently waiting for Datuk Siti Nurhaliza's next album.

2007-10-29T14:17:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. It has been a long time since I post a long entry. I think the time is right for me to do the next one. It is about my Hari Raya Tour 2007 so far, with my relatives and family members both in Malaysia and Singapore. Actually, this year is the year which I have the least number of Hari Raya Tours compared to the previous ones.

I celebrated my 1st day of Hari Raya in Malacca after 4 long years. Finally, everyone gathered back in my grandma's village. The last time everyone gathered back was in 2000. I love it when everyone is back and of course some changed physically and spiritually(?). Since I've talked about this in my second last post, I shall kep this short.

The next Hari Raya Tour was 1 week later. After we came back from Malacca, I had to work the following day and we slack thoughout and only continue our Hari Raya tour on the following Saturday. We rent a car and I was forced to drive it. I told her to rent a small car if she wants me to drive it and yes, she did. On that Saturday, we went to my father's siblings's houses. Rumah Pak Hitam, Achik, Alang, Ongah and Busu. After that, we had dinner at Lestari. Pathetic ya, I told mum not to cook since she was fasting 6 (puasa enam).

On the following day, we went to more houses. To mixtures of my maternal and paternal relatives. Fun and happy, but that was truely felt seeing the joy of the children. At my age, Hari Raya is celebrated more spiritually compared to how I celeberated it when I was still a kid. Different. No more kechings-kechings, duit raya! But ya, such things are no longer important to me. What is important to me now during Hari Raya is to be able to gather around with my relatives and keep in touch with them. Imagine, almost 11 months you spend your time with your friends and your atomic family, it is time to reach out to your paternal and maternal relatives and to see and find out how they are doing just for this one month. But yet, it is sad when I see some of friends as well as cousins who do not bother to visit their relatives. To them it is just a waste of time. How sad! I believe that one day we still need our family members, and their places may not be able to be replaced by our dearly friends. Friends are still friends! Anyway, ya 2nd day of driving. Better I must say but cannot deny that at some points, driving is scary!

Last two days, it was not really a tour but it was people touring to see my atomic family. My sister and brother-in-law had a open house-cum-cukur rambut for my nephew, Mohd Rayaan Haiqaal. I wonder why there are so many As in his name and I just wish he will get as much As in his report book in the future. Hah. My relatives and grandma from Malacca came down. I was late for the Marhabaan session. It was fun! The food was themed Kampung Feast! All were lauk kampung! Nice! I didnt take much pictures, but will ask my sister for more pictures. Rayaan was cute as usual on that day. I am missing Aisy and him already! Gosh!

Yesterday, went out with my Yishun Primary School friends. Gosh! I graduated from YPS in 2000. 7 years ago and people change, I am glad that some poeple still treasure the friendship. Hack care about those who don't. I just can't be bothered by them. It is strange when 7 years back, those people are the one who said that we must not let go of the friendship and must treasure it forever and ironically, 7 years later those people are the one actually forgetting it. As usual, we were late. Meeting was 10.45a.m, Farhana came at 11.00 a.m, Athirah and sister came at 11.10a.m, Izwan came at 11.15 a.m, Salihah came at 11.30 a.m and Rashid came at 12.15 p.m. How great was that! 1st house was Cikgu Sadiah's. A lot of things that happened to her recently, we do not know. Sad. She's 60 now but still going strong! I already ask for forgiveness from her, so I do not wish to talk about her, good or bad, I'll just ignore my thoughts about her! We had great laughs in between. Salihah still rocks! Athirah is still as demure as last time. Rashid is super TALL! Farhana is now a teacher and a model, don't that clash pal? Shared some secrets with them! Glad that they are doing great. Salihah and Athirah doing fine in Nanyang Polytechic, Farhana now teaching at a kindegarten and Rashid slogging off for 'A' levels. I am glad mine is over. Oh ya, Izwan is doing not bad (GOSH) in SCDF, saving people! Hahahaha. Went to all our houses and Zul's house. Zul still look the same but of course more matured-looking. He's back from Cairo and will be going back on Wednesday. Gosh, can't see him off at the airport on Wednesday. I am saving lives, people! Gosh! Hate this! Went home at 12.15 a.m. How great!

Looking forward to next week Hari Raya Tour with some Innovians and teachers next week! Will be back to the frontline tomorrow.

2007-10-23T10:40:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Just want to share this with you guys...

How do you know if your feet smell?

By Aminah Bee

2007-10-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Came across this advertisement in today's Berita Harian about a travelling package. A shopping tour in Kuala Lumpur and also to watch the mega musical entitled 'Remy... Kisah P. Ramlee'. This musical will be one that will involve mega superstars like Liza Hanim, Datin Seri Tiara Jacquelina, Sean Ghazi, Melissa Saila and for the very first time seeing her acting is none other than Dato' Siti Nurhaliza. We will get to mingle around with the stars after the show and the price is reasonable, considering the kind of hotel we staying, the ticket price to the musical as well as the air ticket. Hmm... But I think I shall give it a miss. The date clashes with my sister's open house cum cukur jambul ceremony for my dear Raayaan. Hmmm... I guess I shall just wait for the musical to premiere in Singapore like Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical.

2007-10-15T16:05:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I know this is a bit too late, but still, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Minal Aidil Walfaizin. Celebrated my Hari Raya at my grandma's village in Malacca. Glad that all my maternal relatives are there. Complete. No one left out. All my 24 cousins are there, not including their husbands, wives and children. Love it. The night before Hari Raya, my cousins and I had a so called "mercun war" where we divide ourselves into two groups and attack each other with mercuns. All kind of mercuns. Well, for me it was definitely a great and exciting experience as mercun are hardly to be found in Singapore. Only bunga api or what Ain call "fire flower". Hahaha. Full of fun and of course sadness too. This year like any other years before, we forgive and forget, apologise with one another and of course cry. Went visitting and the funny thing is that, my cousins and I were just blindly following our uncles and aunts to my grandma's siblings places. We go just for the sake of visitting. We only chat, eat, laugh and for the mini ones, money! Even though I have not met some of them for years, we are still able to communicate well and thanks for the praises for my new look! Alhamdulillah. Hahahaha... Many many many updates from my cousins. Some are getting married next year, some are getting engaged, some are flying overseas. To Along Sham, congratulations for your new job appointment and hopefully I will be able to fly to Bahrain to meet you after my NS. It is really nice to meet my cousins after such a long time. I am closer to my maternal family because we can click well, unlike my paternal side, I am one of the younger ones. Most of them are married and already have children. And when my paternal cousins meet, they will talk about their children, their school stuffs and how naughty are they and I will go like, "Hmmm I see!" all the way. Anyway, we also went to the cemetry to pray for our dear late grandfather and uncle. Food! Walah. All kind of Hari Raya goodies. Lemang, ketupat, sambal sotong, sambal udang, mee curry, rendang, serunding and etc. Thanks to the sweet cold drinks and oily stuffs, I think I am getting sick now! Gosh and I am working tonight. Hopefully, there will be lesser calls tonight, and hopefully no new medics will follow me, cause I feel uneasy when they are around as I still consider myself as new and junior! And to those who bother to sms me, thank you for the sms and sorry for the late reply because my hp battery was flat and I forgot to bring my charger along. So, once again, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin!

2007-10-01T16:05:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I would like to dedicate this entry for my dear friend who is celebrating her birthday today. She is none other than Miss Nur Bashirah. Muahahahha. Happy --th Birthday Bashirah! Oopps, can I expose your age? She is someone that I will never forget in my life. My JC years would not have been so interesting without her. Imagine having no one in the entire school with the same subject combination. We rockz! Selamat Hari Lahir... Selamat Hari Lahir... Selamat Hari Lahir Bashirah... Selamat Hari Lahir! Imagine me singing for you lah ya? Hahahaha. Enjoy your day and, I hope and pray that you will be blessed with a good blissful life!

2007-09-26T17:31:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. 533 more days before I bid farewell to the ambulance and serving the paramedics. Paramedics... paramedics... paramedics. Big headache. Both parties, the paramedics and medics claimed that we give each other headache. Well, I have to agree to the medics to a larger extend. This is because, stated in the responsibililties of Medical Orderly, medics are supposed to HELP Paramedics in the ambulance and assist them in the paper work. Now let me ask you a question, when someone is helping you, do you scold or shout at him/her rudely for doing wrong things? Come on, it is nice of him wanting to help you even though he is "forced" into doing it. The medics are having the prime of their youth life. Age 19-23 man! Give them a break! However, not all of them are like that, some paramedics, in fact most of them are nice. They know their responsibilities and they carried them well. They also know that they themselves willingly sign the contract and put on the uniform to be paramedics and hence should not treat their assistants who are unfortunately us, as their punching bag when they are angry.

Again and again, people are asking to sign on as Paramedics, and I firmly say no everytime. No way I am going to be a paramedic. If it is true that I want to save lives, it is more worth it to be a qualified doctor. Looking at their lives, I will never give a thought about being one. I want to continue my studies in the university and if possible up to the Doctorate level. For whatever reason, there is no way I want to do that job and work with that type of people!

2007-09-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. How quick time flies... Tomorrow marks one week of the Ramadhan fasting month. How I wish I am typing, "Tomorrow marks the end of my 2 years NS life" Hahahaha... Never mind, I know that I will do so one day, on the 11th March 2009.

I had a very exciting moment in the afternoon. Looking back at it, it was so funny. I had my first physical recall just now. For the benefit of those who have no idea what physical recall means, it is actually a recall to every NSF who are in a particular force. Upon receiving a message or like the SAF, they will telecast it on the television(the blinking army men), the NSF must report to his base within 30 minutes to 1 hour (for those who live far from his base) in full uniform. So my story was, I was on my way to Hougang from Woodlands, and I took the bus 161. And this bus will leave Woodlands within 5 minutes and wander off to the expressway for another 40 minutes or so before it reach its first bus stop after it make an exit from the expressway. I took the bus at 3.20 p.m. Received no message or call till 3.41p.m which is from another Medic Rifai. He told me that there was a physicall recall at 3.15 p.m. I was like oh SHIT! The bus was still in the bus on the expressway. Later Darren and my senior medic Howie called me to inform me. I must admit that I freaked out in the bus but I did not make a scene in the bus. I remain my composure, it is fasting month dik. The latest I have to reach Paya Lebar Fire Station is 4.15 p.m. At 3.56 p.m I finally alighted at Sengkang. Taxi was nowhere in scene. I called my paramedic and he was new, I asked him if I can go to the station in my uniform. He was not sure, and he asked me to ask my RSM (scary though). At last i called my senior medic who so kind to inform me even though I am not from his ROTA(unlike the medic from my OWN rota). I told him my problem and he said he could lend me his spare uniform in the station. Thank goodness. I waited and waited till finally, a taxi came at 4.10 p.m. I reached the station at 4.20p.m. 5 minutes late, ya but thankfully this was just a mock one and I already informed the station that I was going to be late and they accepted my reason and since this was just a mock one, I could just wear my casual clothes to report.

Only at times like this you will know who your true friends are ...

2007-09-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I was wondering just now if I ever dreamt or ever thought of things that I am doing today, many years ago. The answer is never. I never thought that I will end up being a medic in the emergency ambulance. I do not even know what the people do in the ambulance and how they convey patients over to the hospital. None of my family members have ever called for ambulance service before. Now I know everything about it and has become part of it. That is life, sometimes you might end up doing something that tou never think of doing it, something that is so out of the box. Strange. We can only plan but He is the one who determines it. Now, I am wondering of what I will be doing in 2 years time. In university, insyaAllah. What will I be like when I join NUS? What kind of student I am? Which area will I be most interested in? Who will be my best friend then? Who will be my favourite lecture? Where is my hangout place in the university? What will I be known for? Hmmm... All that will be answered when the time comes!

2007-09-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Just came back from work and still not sleepy. Last two days, watched Titian Minda 2007 on Suria. Wah, I don't really watch they debate because I was reminiscing all the way. I think the debate standards are going down so much. People are getting more and more wayward from the right debating manner. Let me contradict myself here for once, there is no right or wrong debate manner. However, debater must be able to debate well and fulfil the requirements of debating. As long as you do your part as a debater, I do not think there is a problem to it. Here, I am not including those diva-acting"debaters" who debate with full of emotion and DRAMA! We must remember that in a particular debate, emotions cannot be articulated. Some of them show it through with their faces and hand actions. A good debater must have a mature thinking and from there he/she will be able to see the whole picture of the motion and also, will be able to show a professional standard of debating. Motion must be well addressed. Worst still, the debate is becoming more like an entertainment show. Informal dressing, dramatic debaters, video clips, sofa and reality-tv way of commenting by the judges. I am somehow thankful that I belong to the traditional debate, less entertainment value but high education value and I am glad to show it to the viewers that this is debate! An intellectual "battle" among students. If you want to make it more relax and entertaining, why not abolish the whole thing and make it like a talk show. Maybe you can call it... "Perang Mulut, Bual Laser, Perang Diva, Minda Berapi or something that you think which is more appealing. Rather than Titian Minda. This is so "intellectual". Can't television shows be somewhat intellectual? Hey wake up, your viewers are getting more "stupid" because of your bloody, stupid shows! Arghh..Enough of debates.

Went to Geylang Serai for some shopping. For myself, I bought kain samping which cost me $80 and Anuar Zain's latest album. Gosh! He is so good! His voice is better now. More variations of tones and lenggok. Very nice, soothing voice now. Introduced few new elements into this album, "opera" voices, lots of strings accompaniment! Favourite songs are I'm The Lucky One, Ketulusan Hati, Lelaki Ini and Jangan Pernah Lagi. Break my fast with dates and Air Kathirah in the taxi with my mum. I love kathirahs!

2007-09-15T20:30:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Happy Civil Defence Day!

2007-09-12T09:41:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Guys, in conjuction with the uocoming Hari Raya Aidilfitri (1 month to go), I will be playing Hari Raya songs here and all of them are my favourites. I will try to make an effort to change them every week. So guys, enjoy! Selamat Berpuasa!

Pada kali ini, saya ingin menyertakan teks mengenai kelebihan berterawih pada malam bulan Ramadhan supaya ia boleh ditatap bersama dan menjadi pengetahun kita bersama

Kelebihan Sembahyang Sunat Terawih Diriwayatkan oleh Saidina Ali (r.a) daripada Rasulullah (s.a.w), sebagai jawapan dari pertanyaan sahabat-sahabat Nabi (s.a.w) tentang Fadhilat (kelebihan) Sembahyang Sunat Terawih pada bulan Ramadan.

Malam 1 :
Keluar dosa-dosa orang mukmin pada malam pertama seperti mana ia baru dilahirkan, mendapat keampunan dari Allah.
Malam 2 :
Diampunkan dosa-dosa orang mukmin yang sembahyang Terawih serta kedua ibubapanya (sekiranya mereka orang yang beriman).
Malam 3 :
Berseru malaikat di bawah Arasy supaya kami meneruskan sembahyang Terawih terus-menerus semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa engkau.
Malam 4 :
Memperoleh pahala sebagaimana pahala orang-orang yang membaca kitab-kitab Taurat , Injil, Zabur dan Al-Quran.
Malam 5 :
Allah kurniakan baginya pahala seumpama orang sembahyang di Masjidil Haram, Masjid Madinah dan Masjid Al-Aqsa.
Malam 6 :
Allah kurniakan pahala kepadanya pahala malaikat-malaikat yang tawaf di Baitul Ma'mur (70,000 malaikat sekali tawaf) serta setiap batu-batu dan tanah-tanah mendoakan supaya Allah mengampunkan dosa orang yang mengerjakan sembahyang terawih pada malam ini.
Malam 7 :
Seolah-seolah ia dapat bertemu dengan Nabi Musa serta menolong Nabi (a.s) menentang musuh ketatnya Firaun dan Hamman.
Malam 8 :
Allah mengurniakan pahala orang sembahyang Terawih seperti mana yang telah dikurniakan kepada Nabi Allah Ibrahim (a.s).
Malam 9 :
Allah kurniakan pahala dan dinaikkan mutu ibadat hambanya seperti Nabi Muhammad (s.a.w).
Malam 10 :
Allah (s.w.t) mengurniakan kepadanya kebaikan di dunia dan di akhirat.
Malam 11 :
Keluar ia daripada dunia (mati) bersih daripada dosa seperti ia baharu dilahirkan.
Malam 12 :
Datang ia pada hari Qiamat dengan muka yang bercahaya (cahaya ibadatnya)
Malam 13 :
Datang ia pada hari Qiamat dalam aman sentosa daripada tiap-tiap kejahatan dan keburukan.
Malam 14 :
Datang malaikat menyaksikan ia bersembahyang Terawih serta Allah tiada menyesatkannya pada hari Qiamat.
Malam 15 :
Semua malaikat yang menanggung Arasy, Kursi, berselawat dan mendoakannya supaya Allah mengampunkannya.
Malam 16 :
Allah (s.w.t) tuliskan baginya terlepas daripada neraka dan dimasukkan kedalam syurga.
Malam 17 :
Allah kurniakan orang yang berterawih pada malam ini sebanyak-banyak pahala Nabi-Nabi.
Malam 18 :
Seru malaikat : Hai ! Hamba Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah telah redha kepada engkau dan ibubapa engkau (yang masih hidup atau mati).
Malam 19 :
Allah (s.w.t) tinggikan darjatnya didalam syurga Firdaus.
Malam 20 :
Allah kurniakan kepadanya pahala sekelian orang yang mati syahid dan orang-orang yang solihin
Malam 21 :
Allah binakan sebuah istana di dalam syurga daripada nur .
Malam 22 :
Datang ia pada hari Qiamat aman daripada tiap-tiap dukacita dan kerisauan (tiada dalam keadaan huru-hara di Padang Mahsyar).
Malam 23 :
Allah (s.w.t) binakan kepadanya sebuah bandar di dalam syurga daripada nur
Malam 24 :
Allah buka peluang 24 doa yang mustajab bagi orang yang berterawih pada malam ini (elok sekali berdoa ketika sujud).
Malam 25 :
Allah Ta'ala angkatkan daripadanya siksa kubur.
Malam 26 :
Allah kurniakan kepada orang berterawih pahala pada malam ini seumpama 40 tahun ibadat.
Malam 27 :
Allah kurniakan orang berterawih pada malam ini ketangkasan melintas atas titian Siratul Mustaqim seperti kilat menyambar.
Malam 28 :
Allah (s.w.t) kurniakan kepadanya seribu darjat di akhirat.
Malam 29 :
Allah (s.w.t) kurniakan kepadanya pahala seribu kali Haji Mabrur
Malam 30 :
Allah (s.w.t) beri penghormatan kepada orang berterawih pada malam terakhir ini yang teristimewa sekali, lalu berfirman : " Hai hambaku, makanlah segala jenis buah-buahan yang engkau ingin makan di dalam syurga dan mandilah engkau daripada air syurga yang bernama Salsabila, serta minumlah air daripada telaga yang dikurniakan kepada Nabi Muhammad (s.a.w) yang bernama Al-Kauthar".

Petikan dari buku : Rejab, Syaaban, Ramadan oleh Budiman Radhi

2007-09-10T11:59:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. I think I already get used to the "station life". Now, whenever there is a ambulance call, I no longer feel, "dupdap...dupdap...dupdap", scared and anxious. I am glad. I must say that I learn more withing my 1st week in station that the irritating 6 weeks in CDA. Haizzz. Really wasted 6 weeks of my life there. Arghh... I do not wish to remember those 6 terrible weeks!

Anyway, Ramadhan Al-Barakah is coming very soon. Have you gote your dates ready? Oh no, I am not referring to that candle-light dinner dates or something but dates as in kurma. Hahahaha...Lame huh? To the 05S71-ians, be prepared for another Hari Raya gathering. Will inform you guys soon!

from http://www.umno-terengganu.net/

Kepada semua muslimin-muslimah,

Saya ingin mengambil kesempatan ini untuk memohon ampun dan maaf daripada anda sepanjang kita berkenalan. Izinkan saya mengharungi bulan Ramadhan ini sesuci-sucinya dari noda dan dosa. Sekiranya ada kala saya termakan mahupun terminum sesuatu yang dimiliki anda, saya berharap segalanya dihalalkan mana yang diharamkan anda. Semoga kita sama-sama dapat menghayati kesucian bulan yang penuh barakah ini dan mengharunginya dengan penuh ketaqwaan dan semoga kita masih diberi kesempatan oleh-Nya untuk bertemu Syawal yang bakal menjelang.

2007-09-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

From www.project1.caryacademy.org

Assalamualaikum. Is it true that we have to really enjoy during our teenage years? I have to agree to this but this is rather too vague a statement - "Teenagers must enjoy" Hahaha. Enjoy ya, but we must not do so while forgetting to think about our future. I think that this is the problem with the youngsters nowadays. They listen too much to their friends, especially those who are more stylish and "cool". I think the correct statement that teenagers should bear in mind is "Teenagers must enjoy, with their future bear in mind!"

Few years ago, there are many events held to remind youngsters about Premarital Sex. I must say that the government and Muslim Organisation like MUIS and Mendaki are doing their best to inculcate great values in these youngsters. But as more events are held, unfortunately more youngsters are getting into the menace of premarital sex. I do not think the organisations are to be blamed for this but I feel that they obliterate or maybe miss out the importance of spiritual guide among the teenagers. Religion plays an important part in most of our lives. If religious values are instilled in the youngsters, I do not think that they will be gone astray too far off!

I still remember what one of the SAMO that I respected most, SGT Syed Omar, said. He said that we always want to follow others especially the westerners. It is true that they are successful and are way ahead of us but we must not forget that we live by the clutch of religious and cultural values. These two important things that influence our daily lives are different from theirs. They think differently from us. We all talk about trendsetters and how we admire them and why don't we want to become one? We keep copying every single thing they do and most of the time, it is causing sort of a catastrophe in our lives. Just like this premarital sex thing, to us, it is a sinful act but because of the imperceptible trait of a "copycat" in our society, we just do it without thinking of the cultural and religious values that we are holdinbg on to. Will we, as a society, continue to drown?

2007-08-30T10:56:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. We all know that life is short but indeed, is there room for any regrets? People keep saying that we must live each and every day to its fullest. Make it as if it is the last. Sure or not? Can we still do so when we are doing things that we forced to do day by day? Haizzz. People always asked me to go clubbing with them, I told them I have never go clubbing before and I do not think that the place suits me. They told me that in life, we must taste everything at least once. Is it true? If that is so, why we never want to taste the bitterness of life once. We keep asking for better things, better life. What a contradiction!

On another note, death is a must to each and every living ones! We all know that the day will come but are we preparing for it? When I look back in the past, I was not even sure if I will live up to my 'A' levels days but I still study and prepare for it, but why am I not preparing for the day when I leave this world which will definitely comes. Now I do not have much time to accomplish my religious obligations. What a shit life this is.

Ramadhan is coming, and I am not sure if I will be able to go through it with ketaqwaan when some of the days, I can't even do my solat fardhu and break fast with my family and also go for solat terawih during the nights of Ramadhan. I really hate this. Syawal follow through after Ramadhan. My family plans to celebrate it at my grandma's village in Malacca. All my maternal relatives will be there on the 1st of Syawal. It has been a long time since I celebrate Hari Raya there. Last four years, we did not because my first sister just got married that year and she has to celebrate it with her in-laws in Singapore. Three years ago, I had my 'O' levels, two years ago, my second sister just passed away. Last year, I had my 'A' levels. So for this year, we thought everything was just fine until that stupid, irritating people told me something. "Oh Izwan, you cannot take leave on the 14th and 15th October" What? 12th and 13th October is my off days and you tell me that I have do standbys because other Muslim medics are taking leave on that day. And on top of that I cannot take leave on 14th and 15th October because nobody is free for standbys on these two days. Wah how fair is this world... You give the other Muslim medics to take leave on Hari Raya because they want to celebrate Hari Raya with their families in Singapore and you cleverly find another Muslim medic(unfortunately, it is me) to do standby for that "fortunate" Muslim medic. And you expect me to work 4 days straight? Oh maybe you want me to work on the 16th and 17th too to make me work 6 days consecutively? Isn't that rubbish? So what am I suppose to tell my mother? I can't let them celebrate Hari Raya with my relatives in Malaysia while I am all alone in Singapore. Oh maybe I will be accompanied by my late sister and grandparents here. Ya, celebrating Hari Raya in the ambulance, saving lives... Gosh, I have never celebrated Hari Raya alone and you know how close I am to my family! Ya Allah, tolonglah hambaMu ini...

2007-08-29T23:59:00.003+08:00

One moment you are alive, and the next you are gone. That is how fragile our life is...

2007-08-27T10:24:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Wah... Just heard of Anuar Zain's latest single and I must say that I am blown away by it. It is something new in the malay industry. Never that I heard this kind of song before. It starts with an opera-like intro and the music has a lot of strings accompaniment. Very sweet lyrics. Very sweet voice. And I must say congratulation to Anuar Zain for the good job done .

Last week, on 21st August, it was Dato' Siti Nurhaliza and Dato' Khalid's first wedding annivesary. They had a kenduri doa selamat with their family and on 24th August they had a dinner party with celebrity friends and fans. Can see that they are a happy couple for now. May she is blessed with happiness and continue singing and entertaing us, your dear fans!

2007-08-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. It has been a long time since I have got a chance to blog. Been quite busy with may stuffs lately. Actually after being an ambulance attendance, I have more free time than usual. I think it is mainly because I have 3 full days off in a week and on top of that, if I am working night shift, I still have the afternoon and for that I have to compromise my sleeping time. I am thankful that I am blessed by Him to be able to see lots of things that many people do not usually get to see. Different kinds of people, with a variety of emotions at very different places. I also get to see things that I never got to see before, went to weird places that I never imagine me stepping into.

Anyway, amidst the hectic life of mine, I manage to squeeze some times for gatherings and meetings. Last week, caught up with 05S71 at none-other than Fish n Co. Madeleine, Ying Ying, Lily, Touty, Mirna, Melissa, Jason, Tian Chong, Calvin, Yasin, Shawn, Mervin and Mr. Sim were there. Saunders dropped by for a while. It was great to see almost everybody. It is nice to be back in contact with Touty, Mirna and Lily who went MIA after the exams. And as for the guys, now when we meet, our main topic will be NS, NS, NS and NS. No more ten years series, Newton's laws, Summer Test and gossiping about the teachers and friends. But it would be better if Bashirah is there, am I right Bashirah? Ate Hot Chocolate Fudge Cake. Nicey, sinful! Hahaha. Did not really get to talk with Yasin because when he came, I left for my Novawinds band gathering.

Monisha asked me for suggestion for an eating place at Suntec City. Thought of trying new stuff, I suggested Bombay Cafe. It looked great on the advertisements on the television. Did not know that it was a vegetarian restaurant. Nice theme and pretty cosy, shocking PINK and lots of Yogurt! I myslef drank a blended ice with yogurt and mango. Nice but too thick and sweet for me. Then headed to the fireworks at Marina! So many people and we thought of going over to Esplanade since Lixian was there but people were already sitting on the stairs! So Monisha, Maslyn, Jacelyn, Genevieve, Fazlan, Ismail and I decided to stay put at Marina. Nice firework! It was Monisha's birthday that day! What a coincidence! After the firework, we went to Clarke Quay to meet Nabil. Saw Jasmine Tye (hope it is the correct spelling) at Clarke Quay. Pretty woman! Sat at Subway(I did not eat there) and chat for a while and took a bus home with Masylyn, Jacelyn, Ismail and Fazlan home. Had a great chat with them. Reminiscing the past! The band moment! Then went home with Fazlan. Had a long chat with him. Good catching session with both the class and the band.

I do not understand why people ahve to be rude and want to show to people that they are good and heroic. Excuse me, this is just National Service. Like what one of my PM said, "This is NS, no one ask you to be a hero, so act smart!" I just want this two years to be over as soon as possible. What is good, I will take note and take that as a catalyst that initiate a higher level of maturity in me and what is bad, I will just grave it but surely a scar will be embedded in my heart. I will just take it as a "gift" from the nation since I am serving them. On a different note, I hate old people who try to joke or talk to me about sexual or erotic stuffs. I hate it! Oh no, I am DISGUSTED by it! Ewww. Look at your age! Rumah kata pergi, kubur kata mari! I do not even joke about those kind of things with my friends. These old men just leave me to wonder what happen to their dignity and sense of shame!

2007-08-10T10:58:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Actually being an ambulan crew is not a bad thing afterall. Every posting or vocation has its up and down I believe. I cannot take every down moment while being a Medic as an obstruction for me to learn and experience new things everyday. Every case is like a new chapter. Once you attend a new call, you will forget about the previous one. Wednesday's cases were my first-time. I learn a lot of stuff. Arghh... Enough about this ambulance thingy.

Now about my life. Has been not so bad. Lots of off days. I hope I will get fatter this way. Next month is the fasting month. Can't wait for it! I hope He will give me the strength and ability to continue and carry out my duty as well as the other days, if not better. Then come Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Did my own calculations and by right, I am suppose to have my off day during Hari Raya. But my biggest worry is that they might re-shuffle our duties as some Paramedics and Medics will be going over to Changi Fire Station and my leave application not approved! Choy! But there is the possibility, there are a sum of Malay Medics that will be fighting for the leave. Gosh! I will apply my leave next month.

Anyway, watched the premiere of Live Your Dream yesterday. Not bad. Even though there are familiar faces like Eka Mairina and Olyyn, and non-Singaporeans, I think they will push the other contestants to greater heights. They will put Singapore's entertainment industry to a higher notch I believe.

2007-08-04T10:06:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. First time working night shift... The experience is fine, I was actually looking forward to it yesterday's afternoon until when I was asked to run the ambulance alone due to the inusfficient number of medics in the station. Some of my friends who graduated from the M.O.C course with and went straight to fire station as an ambulance crew are running the ambulance with the senior medics and some of them are only going to start running alone on their 3rd week. Yeah, big deal? I have to start running the ambulance along on my 3rd day. Do you see the great difference between 3 weeks and 3 days? Gosh! It went fine except some blunders here and there. Thankfully, there are only minor ones! Need to sleep now! Oh before that, I would like to wish all the best to Madrasah Al Ma'rif and National Junior College for the finals of Bahas 4PM today! Too bad, I cannot be there because I am working people. Asta La Vista...

2007-08-03T11:04:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Gosh! Another working day but today will be a new experience for me as in this will be my first time working night shift as an ambulance crew. Gosh! I can't sleep in the afternoon but never mind, I will force myself to sleep after the Friday prayers. Gosh! Worried, excited, anxious and scared! That's how I am feeling now!

2007-08-01T09:25:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. 2 days being an ambulance attendance. It is quite scary. My first call was about a student who got an asthma attack. Gosh! Even though it was nothing compared to the other major cases, I felt really scared and dup dap dup dap... There's a lot f things that I do not know. What were thought in M.O.C course was more for our own genreal knowledge and only little of them were applied in ambulance. I think the M.O.C course needs to be restructured to cater to the ambuklance attendance as majority of the class are going to the fire stations as ambulance attendance. I have mixed feelings about being an ambulance attendance. Some people told me that maybe I should go back to the medical centre as it promise a good slacking life. Some people told me that ambulance attendance have good life, time will pass quickly for them. It is hard sometimes. I just hope I will be given petunjuk by Him. Yesterday when I attended to one case, the casualty's daughter was like saying to her daughter, " Oh gosh! You see these young men, they are blessed to do this job. You guys have the most blessing and wonderful job!" Wonderful job, yeah but am I up for it?

2007-07-29T17:20:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Sometimes I wonder if I am expecting too much from the people around me. Is LIFE like this? Nobody understand your feelings? Watching Aya in One Litre of tears inspire me a lot and make me realise a lot of things. I do regret some things that I've done. I want to buy myself the DVD so that I can keep watching and keep myself aware of how important health and life is. How great is it being able to walk? How great is it being able to talk? How great is it being able to eat? We keep asking for more, but have we ever thought about other people in the world. They are asking things that we have and things that we take them for granted. We have to be thankful for every little blessing that we have. I can't wait to go to university. Being together with my new friends... I want to study again!

2007-07-28T11:57:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Had a series of events that happened last week. Lots of surprises. First was the 4PM semi-finals debate. True that it was a tough fight but still, historyu repeats again. Siapa kata pisang takkan berbuah dua kali? With their "professionalism", I believe it will happen again and again until someone who has the brains and vision take over to lead this debate 4PM. I really think Fizah should win the Best Speaker. She was really good that day. Oh ya, now I have to think twice if I wish to say that this event is a prestigious one because the topic(mauduk) itself has a grammar mistake.

Kelewahan bahasa.
Masyarakat Singapura masih belum menghayati mesej keharmonian kaum dengan mendalam.
Mengahayati bermaksud menjiwai, sesuatu yang sudah sebati dan meresap kedalam sanubari mahupun nurani seseorang. Bagaimana mungkin sesuatu itu dihayati dengan mendalam sedangkan menghayati itu sudah cukup mendalam. Hendak mendalam macam mana lagi sedangkan mesej itu sudah berada dalam nurani masyarakat Singapura? Hendak mendalam sampai masuk ke dalam segala urat saraf atau hendak mendalam hingga ke usus?

And the irony the three "brilliant" judges can still comment that we never debate about the "mendalam". Ya, I will do something till this thing will be dihayati by you dengan cukup mendalam hingga ke dalam usus! I will do something about this. Even the Piala Berita Harian is better. That is only secondary school standard. Pretty shameful. But I will help them in my way! How? It will be a secret between me and Fizah. Hahaha...

Next is the arrival of my second nephew. It was so unexpected. The due date the doctor gave is August 9th. This is the good news that I wanted to share with you guys in the previous post. Will be posting his picture soon. I think both of theirs. Mohamed Aisy Daanyaal and Mohamed Raayaan Haiqal. So cute! Haiz, but will I look older? Gosh!

Next was the sudden new posting order. After 2 weeks at the SCDF HQ Medical Centre, the people there are nice even though they speak in Mandarin most of the time, I have to leave the place. I can read books there and I even set a personal record. Reading A Samad Said's book in a day. Dear Malay 'A' students, you girls should know how thick his books right? Hahahaha... oh ya, the new posting order. I will be posted to Paya Lebar Fire Station as an Ambulance Attendance. This time round, I will really be there when you call 995 especially those who stay around Geylang, Ubi, Eunos and of course Paya Lebar.

Went to Basic Rescue Training Centre and Civil Defence Academy yesterday. It was so nice to meet myt friends back there. Luqman, Denise and Osman. Luqman said that I look thinner and Denise said that I am fairer. Hmmm... Is that true?

2007-07-19T20:12:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum! Alhamdulillah. I am so happy and excited too! What for, let it be a secret! I'll let you guys know soon! I am very excited!

Anyway, will be going to Innova Junior College tomorrow after work. I'll stay there, latest till 8p.m. I will be coaching the Malay Debate team as they will be having their semi-finals match this weekend against Madrasah Al-Ma'rif. Last year, we debated with this school too and I hope this year the winner will still stay the same, both for the overall debate and the best speaker. Go Innova! Go! Reach for the stars! Ad Astra. Ex-innovians and my dear friends, pray for Innova's success!

2007-07-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. 1 weeks and 2 days at the HQ Medical Centre. Not bad. Actually, I quite like it there. I have plenty of time to myself. I finish reading two books already over these 5 days. More books to come. Any books to recommend? For now, I am just leaving the "wish to go to station" thingy to fate. If I am fated to go to station, sooner or later I will definitely go to station. So I'll just leave that to station. There are so may things that I can think and use my brain cells for. Now, I am busy choosing colours to repaint my house. Gosh! Another headache.

I want to be happy. I will not wait for anyone to give or engender the happiness in me. Let it come naturally, with or without that special one, I want to be happy. I should not depend on anyone for that. I live my own life. This life is for me to live. Waste it, I and not other people will regret. We live once, and as evry breath we take in, it is another second closer to death. I want to make the full use out of it. If listening and looking at Datuk Siti Nurhaliza's pictures can make me happy, I will listen and look at lots of it! Hey, I need to find the source of my happiness.

2007-07-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Those who passes out proudly exhibit their badge and certificates. They are those who are in stations or become instructors. Well, to me these two things are nothing, simply nothing. I just hope what they will be "blessed" for what they have done to me.

Aku ibarat apa?
Ibarat lembu yang digarap hidungnya
Ibarat bumi melutut pada perbuatan manusia
Ibarat lilin dibakar buat menerang si gelita
Ataupun
Ibarat pokok yang menjadi paksi dunia

Sirna teguhanku bila ditertawa
Sirna tenagaku bila diinjak terus melara
Sirna semangatku bila ditipu bagai si buta
Sirna tawaku bila dicengkam noda durjana

Entah sampai bila harusku menelan bara
Perlukah aku terus berdiam diri berdukacita?
Haruskah aku pertahankan tugu imanku bak betara?
Mestikah aku bangun menerjang si sialan yang berkalbu cuka?

Biarkan Dia yang menentukan segala-gala, aku hanya menunduk serta